HELLO! just to prove a point that my cg and i was talking about while Lijia was eating her fishball noodle at isle cafe at 5pm!

†tryphoza says:
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=2237381&id=519122005&comments=#/photo.php?pid=2237377&id=519122005&ref=mf

†tryphoza says:
meiyi look like jenny right

Priscilla Amedee says:
okay laaa

Priscilla Amedee says:
nt really

†tryphoza says:
really meh

†tryphoza says:
u scroll up down up down

Priscilla Amedee says:
WHO SO WU LIAO GO DO THAT

Priscilla Amedee says:
i think only you

†tryphoza says:
TSK

†tryphoza says:
lijia tried..

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. POINT PROVEN! follow the fb link and read on!

what happened was, i was telling my cg that if i want people to eat faster or something, i will say: LETS CHALLENGE SEE WHO EAT FASTER! den all of them said that they wont follow what i say(not only in the context of eating luh!). hahaha and i turned to lijia and i said, no lah i think lijia will play with me one. and lijia confidently replied no! HAHAHAH.

POINT PROVEN. HEHEHEHEHEHE. !!!

twitter

follow me at:

http://twitter.com/Tryphoza


(not ver sure if i'll be consistent there tho:x )

because my cg dont believe that i'll update this week.

so here i am updating! HAH.

thought

a phrase i came across in pastor Jeff's blog:

'Jesus was often alone but never lonely. People are hardly alone but often lonely.'


fellowship is secondary. who anchors your life today? who's anchoring my life? what and how do i base my decisions on?



all for one cause, pleasing one audience.

my new coloured room!

like so of you alr know, my room has been repainted with a new coat of paint colour.. for those who've came to my awesome room before, would know that it was prissy's fav colour, YELLOW. now its no longer her favourite colour, but its pink! not baby pink kinda pink, but rouge pink. and i like it very much! i took a photo of my new wall colour and my bed (because my mum just bought matching bedsheets and its damn awesome!). so just, to show the contrast, this is the only picture i could find of- yellow.

see the yellow wall at the back? heee. byebye yellow!

and lets welcome pinkkkk!

yay pink yay pink! HAHAHA. (i was trying to take a shot of the bed and the wall tgr and make it look like those hotel brochure kinda picture of their room. ahahaha but with a 2 megapix laoya pok camera... ahhaha wont go anywhere.)

nice right! dont care if you can see it or not! HAHA, i bet now everyone wants to come over and sleep beside me on my nice comfy pink and reddish bed! heeee!

byebye!

scanty updates

most of my post are saved in my drafts. probably because i didnt type it in sentences that would be legible(?) enough to be understood by you guys. haha!

fighting this battle, dont be discouraged, its not the end. invite invite invite invite invite!
bizart4! dont give up! bestest best best okie? find MEHMEHs! with the little that we have, we give our best, he will provide us with the rest!

doing my best for this cause! not letting anyth pull me down. shooo sickness!
alrights, im gg to bathe and i'll see you guys at tamp inter! invite invite invite invite invite!


oh, black, if you see this, sorry didnt meet you the other day! next week probably yea? (: kekeke!
and bestest friend wee, hahahaha! sorry didnt reply you either! hehehe, free this sunday? hehehe! please feel honoured that im inviting you strraight from ym blroggg...

eeeee

first time my cg members want me to bathe. HAHAHAH! they always say i bathe too many times, now they want me to bathe :S

credits to mummy

my room is finally packed and dust free. hehehehe.

oh, my mum overturned my bed/mattress, and my bed seems higher now. ahhaha! so exciting! like a whole new bedd! HAHAHA.

and, i think i like my room pink. its actualyl rouge pink. dont look that bimbotic lah! anyway, im not bimbotic what! sooo. AHAHAH. kekeke i like it!

breakfast

not a sunny yellow banana day today! kind of spoilt my plans! so, yes, i didnt go for a swim as i mentioned to a few of my friends last night. because the weather is seriously overcast-ed. hahaha!

and because i kept craving for salty food (as usual!) , and couldnt find any (as usual!) , i decided to COOK! ahahahahhahaa! okay lah, i was exaggerating. kekeke, i boiled 1 egg. (counted as cook?)

i made yegg sandwich! with cheese (because i really wanted to eat someth salty!). i was pondering between a margarine-nized toasted bread or yegg sandwich, but decided to settle with yegg sandwich so that i dont have to touch the oven! haha! smart right!

okay, i shall go and sweep and mop my room floor since the painters are done with it!

anyway, byebye yellow wall and hello peachy pink wall!

renovations

past few days, or rather weeks, my house been gg thru renovations, repainting, repairing etc etc. and as such, i was made to stay home for a few days in the mornings. i can honestly tell you the amount of dust that i've to breathe in.. i've been sneezing ever since i woke up!

and, this doesnt feel good especially when i'm supposed to be at vivo at 11am. sneezer. AHHAHA okay that was random..

im so sleepy now btw! but i cant slp, because there are workers in my house repairing, painting bla bla. haha, i didnt even get to sleep in my own room last night! hahaha! the mess, is really.. ahahhaha! worse than the mess that i create! kekeke.



renovate my heart, i'm overcoming.

after camp.

Nat is back from camp! says:
and wow like the past few days keep seeing u all now like back home

Nat is back from camp! says:
i suddenly miss u all HAHAHA

†tryphoza fight, or flight. says:
hahaha awwwwww

HAHAHA i bet bizart4 misses me very muchly!

even though you all are smelly and dirty and dont bathe as often as i do, but i love you guys very muchly and lets hold on tgr yeah? (:

back to blog another time!

thanksgiving to the one who's worthy.

thank you once again. thanks for guiding me and giving me wisdom, thanks for giving me the word when i need it. thanks for being my rod and my staff. thankyou thankyou thankyou thankyou thankyou!


thank you Lord!

summing up, moving on

As i have mentioned in my previous post, i am finally done with exams.

summing up, i realised that i like to do last minute work, last minute revision. and every single time i am done with exams, i would tell myself, the next exam i will not do any last minute revision. somehow, one way or another, till now i have yet to not do last minute revision. i keep telling myself, the next time, the next time, the next time and not to a surprise, the tomorrows never comes.
Learning in your mind is different from learning thru applying. It is really thru actions that determined if one have really learnt. hehe i will attempt to not do last minute revision my next exam! kepe me in prayers!

and as some of you may know, i've been sleeping at unearthly hours, and even not sleeping at all. i would aim to slp by 4am but at last decide not to sleep at all, because my revision is not concise, not enough for me to take my papers. i dont know how i managed to sustain myself thru the night, just studying. even when im tired, i still continued. i think all these are really by the grace of God. i remember there were countless of times where i really really felt like crying because despite attempting the same questions for numerous times, i still could not get the answer right. but you know what? admist all these, there was someone who was encouraging me throughout, not to give up. not to let go. He gave me strength to sustain myself.
altho, i am not even 20% sure that i can pass my papers, but im more than ever satisfied to know that not only someone cares for me, he brought even more people to care for me. how abt that? hehe.

so, now that im over with exams i have more than enough time. and guess what? i've still been sleeping at unearthly hours and to unearthly hours! i could slp at 12am and wake up at 12pm the next afternoon.

so on saturday, i actually decided to meet my sheep early in the morning to go for a morning run the next morning at east coast park (which is known as TODAY)! so, afraid that i wont be able to wake up the next day, i decided to slp without my aircon on. i wanted to take away the comfort of mine so that i would make myself wake up in the morning. and as i was reflecting why i did that, i came to a beautiful conclusion. most of the time, we do not like to take our comfort away, we dont like to come out of our comfort zones. but when we are really determined to get that something done that is deemed as important to us, we will try all ways and means to do it just to make sure that that something gets done. we will take away our comfort zones, that in my case was my aircon, so that we can get the something that we want to do done.

this leads me to the next question. when is the last time have you taken someth that is within your comfort away?

so anyway, today's an awesome day. i woke up to run. thank god that the weather was aweosme when we were running. anyway, it rained after that which was not very awesome because it was cold cold cold, but thank god water baptism was still able to be done! haha, there are now still some people who are smelly and smellier who are watching movie at tampinese while im happily all washed up and clean. do you know that i didnt even bother to wait for my heater to boil, i just went to bathe. i canot take the dirtyness! imagine running, getting drenched at water baptism, running in the rain.... ewwww the sticky sticky feeling, WHICH i think many of them are feeling in the cinema right now. HAHA okay im kind of a clean freak one! HAHA like,... if you wanan slp on my bed, please bathe first otherwsie, dont touch! HAHAHA.

hehehe, such a lengthy post. im sleepy now. ahhahahahaha.

things that are beyond my control, i just let god take them all. i never had control. i was never god.

thanksgiving

I finally had my last paper today. hehe, so many things to thank god for!

first up, thank god for people and lovely friends around me! this is the first time in my life that i received 3 exam kits! hehe, really wanna thank god for these people, YOUR EXAM KITS REALLY HELPED in making me a fatty BUT ALSO TO HELP ME KEEP AWAKE! hehehe!

other than that, i wanna thank god for my lovely bff! hehehe, i got such a lovely surprise the other day after a long day, and when i got home, despite feeling tired, my face just glowed with happiness! none other than my lovely Adeline!

how to not smile you tell me! a own made card and gift from my so awesome girl, with a super lovely msg fuilled with memories! so touched! thanks alot babe! still loving you as much! (and still praying for you to know god soon! HAHAHAH)

hehe, anyway some of my papers were really cui, but than... i still give thanks! hehehe. thank you lord!

<33

someth stupid, but i hope it makes your day (:

The story of Tryp, the yakult and the straw.

credits to AyelVee

it all happened like this..

i was bored from studying, so i walked down to my fridge and took a bottle(?) of yakult of my right hand, and a straw on my left hand. having the habit to shake shake shake my yakult before i drink it, i started shaking my left hand. HAHAHHAHA. and that meant that i was shaking the straw, and i didnt realise it until i closed my fridge door!

hehehehehe, okie back to studying. (and i created facebook!)

rock-chic make up stuffs

i wanted to try out a rock chic make up on my eye area, and i looked up on some videos. hehe some videos are really awesome.

but anyway, i dont know if i did mention it the other time i tried it, but anyway i failed the other time and had to wash off everyth. so this time i'm smarter, im not that ambitious, i tried it on the upper lid first. (the other time i did it below my eye to get that rock chic look, i looked like a panda...)


this time, i armed myself with GREY eye shadow from PLATA CREATION, its a palatte(whatever it is called, the one with many many colours) oh and i have it because my mum used to be a makeup artise, so i just took it and used it! i also used my sister's M.A.C shiney silvery eye powder(?) thing, my usual revlon eyeliner, some chanel(mums!) liquid concealor and a little blusher (OKAY I KNOW, TO GET A ROCK CHIC LOOK, I SHLDNT USE BLUSHER! i just used a tiny bit luh, haha cos i looked like a zombie), and my mum's mascara and some chanel loose powder. HAHA perks of having females who are older at home. just use allll their stuffs. hehehehe! anyway, hehehe im so excited.


so... anyway, im glad i did it the safe way. slowly do den add on, and kiasee(?) until stop. show you guys some of my product.

Okay, this is the first one. yea i know not very rock chick. not enough eyeliner! and not enough masara!



so i added in more eye liner. but not too much, because i didnt want to wash off everyth again!


and this is the one with more eyeliner. and i ended my journey with rock-chic look there.

HAHA i didnt want to spoil it alr luh. hehe quite an accomplishment. nth much buttt. heheheh the next time i do it, i'll get bolder! i'll apply more eyeliner, and have thicker mascara and apply some at lower part too. if you get what i mena. actually i think i wanna try it now.. BUT IM AFRAID IT'LL SPOIL. AND IM SUPPOSED TO BE OUT NOW. SO BYEEE!


oh pardon me for my 2 megapix camera and for the lightings. thats the best i could go.. haha. and... byeeee

ehhyoooooo~

i am super distracted by everyth! HAHA, i think i've walked up to my room for more than..... 29 times today. (im studying at the dining table downstairs)

how's all my friends coping with FOI so far? hehe.

i've armed myself with redbull (even tho it doesnt work!) and maggi mee. i have roughly 7 hours to study before i go to bed at 4am! hehe! studying in the wee hours work better for me because its less distracting with no dog, no human around me!


hohohoho tryph study~!

rat alert. rat caught. rat let off.

yet another rat attack, and again, i'm not at home to witness it. TSK!

sms btween me and daddy:
Daddy: Caught another mouse last night. Don't know whether this is the same one caught last time. Now i let go at Kim Tian road.
Me: haha! wait appear at your office. or maybe it travel back to home. why sassy so useless never go fight the rat? she ran away from the rat again?
Daddy: stupid dog. Don't know how 2 catch rat. May be she share food with rat. May be they are friends.

HAHAHAHAHAHA! retarded. imagine if sassy is really rat's friend. or rather rat's lover. omgosh! hahahahahahahaha. but i still love sassy!


OKAY BACK TO FOI-ING!

someth stupid. HAHA

okay, one confession to make. i always think that i should not cut my hair before my exams because i will bring me bad luck! HAHAHAHAHA, its always just a random thought that i have before exams. i think its pyschological. HAHAHAHA! aiya but anywayyy, i have a huge random urge to snip off my hair. HAHAHAHA.


okay i didnt study much today. tmr shall study harddzzxxz HAHAHAHA. my internet has gone crazy tonight!


GDNIGHT!

2 Timothy 1:7
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

short update

Past two days have really been fun! hehe, altho most of the time i was either halfway reading my notes, or halfway thinking about my exams... BUT, i really had lots and lots of fun.

on thurs, i had music prac and i really learnt alot! self-denying, having fun, serving god etc etc.! dont really know how to put it in words. HAHA!

friday, we had dmm outing! heh, astons, some ice dessert stuffs along katong and then to teo heng karaoke!

and today, another night of fun with the dmm at 12 degrees! hehe!

anyway, im sleepy now. HAHA and im waiting for my heater to boil so that i can bathe and go to bed!

my thoughts are all over now, but in all! i reallly enjoyed myself! serving the Lord's really fun eh? heh!

dears, i will accept, commit and encourage you all and i will love you all! (if i got that right!)

hehehehe! gdnight and i love you all! (:

MEME! YOUYOU!

[EDIT // 10 FEB 2009 1:37PM] - i forgot to tag people after minyi reminded me. so here goes:
tagged: ONG MINYI, chalene tan, AND EVERYONE WHO READS MY BLOG THANKYOU!


1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY?' YOU SAY?
Do Ya - Mcfly

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Everything is not broken - John Mayer

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
No one like you - Chris Tomlin
nobody's feeling the way i do! HAHAHHAA

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Goodbye my lover - James Blunt
haha sounds like quite a fun thing to do eh, saying byebye to my lover is my life purpose. hahaha


WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
I will run to you - Hillsong
ahmen! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Song for Clay - Bloc Party

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Into you - Jennifer Knapp

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Salt of the earth - Lovedrug
haha! being salt and light of the earth?

WHAT IS 2+2?
Solution - Hillsong United
i'm awesome! i think of solutions to solve 2+2!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Going through the motions - Mcfly
woooo, yesss my best friends go thru motions with me. ahhahahaa

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Feeling Good - Muse
the person i like feels good abt themselves! ahhahaha?

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Wide Awake - Emi Fujita
haha, my life is more exciting than yours!

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
All about lovin you - Bon Jovi
hahaha! i wanna be a rich taitai and love my husband when i grow up!

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Light the fire again - Brian Doerksen
hahaha, everytime i see the person, the fire lights up? HAHAHAHA!

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Chariot - Gavin DeGraw

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
City of devils - Yellowcard

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
I will go - Hillsong
haha, walao, i really went to the other land. HAHAHAHHA.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
B06_05 Romans_NIV - Faith comes by hearing
wah i spiritual! HAHA its a audio bible btw!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Symphony No. 5 - Gustav Mahler
musiccc.... unpredictable but soothing.

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
We want to see Jesus lifted high - Noel Richards
haha, no not really?

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Wait until Tomorrow - John Mayer
hehehe, see tmr how? procrastinate?

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
City on a hill - Third Day

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
半獸人- 周杰倫
prissyler makes me laugh.

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
How you remind me - Nickelback
awwwwwww.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Do me a favour - Artic monkeys
I WILL GET MARRIED, YOU ALL NO NEED TO DO ME A FAVOUR! TSK!

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Hero - Enrique Iglesias
yah lah, action wanna be hero only. HAHAH

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
You never had it - The magic numbers
HAVE OKAY. ALOT ALOT ALOT!

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Going to california - Led Zepplin
HEHEHE, i wanna go california!

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Love of my life - City Harvest Church

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
A drive and a Knock - Budak Pantai
yah wasting time and a knock on my head, to stop wasting time and go back to study!


hahahah, this is a stupid meme that pris wants me to dooo. HAHAH (:
updates soon!

sneezes, but healing!

today i sneezed close to about 100 times. HAHA im seriously not exaggerating! every minute (unless if i was taking a nap in class), you'll see me sneezing. i used up... 5 packets plus of tissues in total! haha!

but the awesome thing is, im feeling soooo much better now after cg! hehehe. thank god for Singyee for helping me to look for panadol cold! hehe, feel loved man!

anywayyy, i should be gg off to bed straight after i take a shower after blogging. need to have adequate rest because tmr is gonna be a super long and cold day! (rmb to bring jacket!)
my grp mates and i are meeting at 930am tmr (very early i know! ) to prepare for our (scary) presentation later in the afternoon which will last frommm 1.30pm all the way to 6.30pm! hehehehe! (rmb to bring jacket! rmb to bring jacket!) HAHAHHA!

okay! i'll talk more when i've the time! love you all!

Who Survives?

We all fight for survival and the strongest remains. Despite of bruises, hurts and scars, fighters carries on.

(credits to GUSTAVOSERONELLO)

And, I'm that fighter. I'm that super fighter.

piano.

so im here at 4.40am talking about piano. AHHAHA.

for the past two days, i've been practising some finger exercises on the piano. and man, its tough! i hate finger exercises because my fingers dont listen to me and... when they run, they go wild and i cant control them. but precisely because of that, i have to practise my fingers and my fingerings!

i've been practising from this guy, Hanon, e virtuoso pianist. and it has sixty exercises for the piano. and currently, i have completed only 1 half exercises. haha and i've noticed that my left hand third fourth and fifth fingers are really weak. like really really really weak. and i have have HAVE to train them! i think it's super weak because, previously my Russian piano teacher (which i dont really like) did someth to it, in a bid to 'stretch' my fingers so that i could play more notes etc etc. welll, i rmb the pain on my fingers after he did that, and i couldnt play with my left hand after that for the whole lesson. heh.

so anyway! im gonna train up my fingers and i will be able to play my pieces so very beautifully soonz. hehehehe.

and, just fyi, i slept the whole morning and afternoon away on CHU YI! hahahaha. awesome! and i love sambal ramen! (:

gdnight'!

(oh i had some damn goodz hey bi hiam just now! gonna search for more tmr^^ )

exercise on a sat morning/afternooon.

heh! so i awesome woke up this morning/afternoon, and i went for a swim! okay, i tanned more than i swim. BUT anyhow, my skin colour's still the same. i wonder why everytime after i tan, my colour dont change. ): sadness. i think i got to be like burnt before my colour would change eh.

okay, im sleepy now. hehe i'm excited for bizart's reunion dinner later ^^ at jacobs place! HAHAHAHA. awesome!

[edit]

just received some photos from pohli. hehehe. gonna post it. and introduce to you, some really retarded person and also, our saviour for the day for PFP^^

This is my retarded friend, Charlene, who's on a SHIP for CNY. heh.

And the one in blue is Pohli, our saviour for PFP! heh.

HAPPY CNY!

WOOOOO. my DO-OR-DIE LIST COMPLETED!

HEHEHEHE. this is so exciting. as some of you may know, okay not many knows... I had a DO-OR-DIE list which have to be completed by thurs night. and thurs itself, i have only completed less than 1/4 of it all. ! and now.. guess what. im so excited and I'LL LET YOU GUYS SEE SOMETHING!

HIGHLIGHTED IS COMPLETED YEAHH?

CAN YOU JUST EXACTLY FEEL WHAT IM FEELING NOWW? OMGOSH. hahahahaha. im sure my classsmates understands!

so, im completed with all of my projs. and im not the one editting ( since i zabot all these kinda things ) HHAHAHAHA. IM DONE!

hehehe, however, next up would be...

EXAMS! i have 4 papers. hehe 2 finance and 2 human resource papers. so... its time to start studying! i should not procrastinate:X HAHAHA, TRYPH WILL STUDY TRYPH WILL STUDY AND NOT BE LAZY, NOT BE LAZY, NOT BE LAZY! \/^^\/

anddddd, im totally hooked on with my print screen function. AHHA! hehehe, for now i wanna show you guys some biscuit that i totally love....

DEWBERRY. strawberry flavour. it doesnt only taste nice, its cheap too! hehehhehehee. and i loveee it.

OKAY IM SUPER SUPER SLPY NOW.. AND I REALLY NEED REST BUTTTTT I STILL HAVE CONSULTATION LATER. ANDDDD IM FEELING SOOOOO WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. YESSSSS!

haha, one thing abt CNY that i dont like. it makes me feel that i have the right to eat! and its not good this year, because its happening during project weeks and that gives me more reason to eat. haha! i just had... a whole lot of CNY goodies that my mum displayed in the hall! hehehehe.

recently i've been using alot of.. "you get what i mean?" in my speech. haha! aftermath of project discussion.

im so glad, abt 3/4 of my insurance planning is done, PROVIDED we are doing it right. i have a gut feeling that we are partially wrong actually. ohwells, gotta ask around tmr!

oh anyway, i think my laptop is gg thru a 'suey' period right now. the other day, okay MONDAY, i was walking in heels, walking down the stairs and i tripped and almost fell. but i didnt. 但是! my laptop hit against the railings.
today, while i was booking a room in business, me and my clumpsiness, dropped my laptop on the flooor. the worse thing was... my ipod was inside my laptop bag too ): was damn sad please. but my lovely dear char was being so retarded trying to tell me its gonna be okay, she said: "nothing will happen one lah, your laptop is a LIFEbook. it will have LIFE!" hahaha. how retarded can she get?

okay, my post are getting too wordy. i want to post up pictures of my new heels! but.. haha 不要啦!

okay off i go with my doritos :X and my HR report^^

YES!

things are changing, but changes are good. changes make things happen and changes creates excitement!

one week before CNY

Heh. this is one week before CNY. which means the ultimatest chiong week! hahah, i've got a submission on FRIDAY. FINALLY. ahhahaha and a submission on 28jan, one day after CNY. thats why all reports got to be done this week. also, i've a 'staged' meeting on wed for commskilss!

i seriously cant wait for friday. because friday is gonna be like the bestest day of my year 2.2! PERSONAL FINANCIAL PLANNING PROJECT WILL TOTALLY BE OFF MY LIST BY THEN. btw, i think i am totally not suitatble to be a financial planner. HAHAHA.

but anyway...

after projects, its gonna be serious studying. ahah i dont wanna retake my modules!! esp for my two retarded finance subject that i have failed in. HAHAHA.

anyhow, im really looking forward to a awesome week. im gonna make my week awesome.


anyway, just a summary of my week.
i've been bringing my laptop to sch every single day, even on saturday when i went back to sch to do proj. and when i went for service, i actually felt weird without my laptop!

on friday, i had a nice short catch-up (i wouldnt call it a catchup actually. ahhaa anywayy...) with my ex-shepherd who sat beside me during corporate prayer meet. had a awesome time there even tho my poor feet was aching from my newly bought heels since i wore them from morning..
anyway, service was awesome. looking down from the stage, i see the emptyness of nexus at the back, and i was still filled with joy. i cant wait to see nexus filled up again! altho the process is hard, sometimes stopping me, but still.. heh.

and then, i had a really good time with God on saturday during heart preparation, during service while ministering, after service meetings. really awesome. altho my body was sooo tired, and my mind was filled with thoughts, i was indeed more refreshed than i was in the morning and in the week.

OH DID I TELL YOU GUYS THAT I BOUGHT NEW CHIO HEELS? SUPER CHIO PLEASE. hahahaha. yes very chio. haha i was telling my classmates that my shoes are like the attention grabber on me. HAHHA i mean, probably only my attention was grabbed, but anywayy. i kept looking at my shoes anyhow. i like it. hehee i wanted to post a picture of it, but i think you guys will call me narcissistic. HAHAHA soooo, please take any chances to look at my feet whenever you see me okay/ it could be your lucky day!

okay i've KSCC tmr at 830 so im going to bed alr!

PS i need to get CNY clothes and more formal wear :S im lucky that KSCC is on monday and my "staged" meeting is on wed. have 1 day to dry my clothes! ahaha! otherwisee.... i'll really be fragrant. HAHAHHA.

ohh need to pack my rooom soonz too! (:

love you all and goodnight goodbye take care have fun and miss me!

reasons.

i think i shld give a proper explanation to why my life so far, have been about projects and non stop projects! its not that i have totally forgotten abt who's the Greater in my life. lol!

reason being why im always busy, why im always tired, etc is because;
1) 12 jan 09 was my Kelly services submission and also my test.
2) 23 jan 09 is the day whereby Personal Financial Planning submission is due.
3) 28 jan 09 is the day whereby Human Resource submission is due.

and reason being why we are chionging like crazy is because, finance is not a easy subject. there's alot and alot and alot of stuff to be done. and every dateline is just so tight and none of us wants to spend Chinese New Year doing projects! hehehe. you know, when you stand beside us doing project you can actually feel the aura...

oh and before all these submission, i actually had another submission, which was Fundamentals of Investment. i even remember that all of us went so crazy that we actually wanted to meet up on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day to do project.

its really the first time im actually feeling all the stress from all these school work! especially when you're actually doing your project but you dont really know what you're doing. anyone can identify??


yessss thats why i've been rather tired and stuff recently. and blogging is one of my avenue to reduce stressss! hehe. stress management eh?

anywayy, HAHA abt thoughts of droppping finance altogether and taking another elective... it have been ringing constantly in my mind nowadays. hehe, on one side, it seems like a cowardly act of running away from disgusting finance but on the other, it seems like its a awesome plan! sighe. lol! dont know what i should do. oh, did i mention that i failed both my finance paper? yeah. so did i. i failed both my finance paper. hahaha. i wonder what damage is gonna be done to my GPA, and especially when im going to take Calculus next sem. i wonder if my GPA will drop drop drop..... HAHA. that is why... im considering of dropping finance elective!! what if... i dont do well altogether because of finance, and i have like zero chances of entering uni? haha, given the GPA i have now.... its kinda impossible to get into a uni alr.

tryph's finally thinking abt her future eh?
i was talking to my friend abt future and i realised that i totally have zero clue abt mine! i have no aspirations, i have no dream job, i dont have any particular interest.... so, what am i going to major in, in the future? that i do not know.

i dont like my blog font.

oh, and im handicapped now because of my left index finger. it hurts okay! lol! im injured! HAHAHA. oh no, i wonder if anyone actually reads my post. i think i sound pyschotic talking to myself.

but oh well. these are things i've to think abt. what i like, what i want to do, how to do so etc etc. haha these are things that we cant run away from yeah? reality. lol!

OH, a huuummmonnngouuusss spider was crawling around the desk at KSCC this morning. i was just abt to make a call to a client, and i saw the spider. its really huge. ahaha guess my reaction!

sighe i miss sassy now :X
gdnight everyone! i shall attempt to do more work now (:





'you are my strength, strength like no other.....'

run

haha, so i really went for a run today.

my run didnt start off well. First thing was, i couldnt find my running shoes. and the next was that, less than 5 minutes into the run, my sides were hurting (results of not being fit. ): boooo.), and the worse was.... i realised that i brought my ipod earphones out instead of my running ones, the ones that 'clips'/'cling' onto your ears. rarrrr.

but anyhow, it was still a good run, though i was cui after probably 15 mins... made me feel more... I MUST GET MY FITNESS BACK! ahahahaha.

and to end off my run, hahahaha i had steamboat grill. lol!

in conclusion, my run was kind of wasted:X HAHAHA

okay im off to study because i havent really started yet. anddd there's xiao niang re at 9.55pm tonight! and i've set my phone alarm.. just in case i forget:X HAHA i will be busy studying okay!

ohhhhh, and i have a cut on my index finger and i dont know why.. after running i came back... and there was the cut. hahahaha.OKAY BYEBYE.

thought i might blog first before i start my work and my week.

hehe, its gonna be a hectic week ahead and i had nice tauhueyzui(HAHAHA HOW TO SPELL!) last night.

think my week would be really busy this week, but i pray that i'll have time to go shopping to get my CNY clothes and to exercise too! its alll abt discipline!

anyway, i've KSCC proj submission, a presentation and a test tmr. hectic ness. after blogging, im off to study for my test and den i'll memorise my presentation stuffs, dont wanna get killed by my grp mates!

tues and thurs are my off days for projects (i hope:X) but anyway, my piano class have been shifted to 2.15pm on thurs instead of 4pm, which kinds of give me a whole lot of time from 3.15 till 7plus. yawns.

and i cant find wuhe milk tea like anywhere else...

and if anyone actually realises, year2 is ending. so fast uh. exams are coming right up. and i dreamt that i had a B for Fundamentals of Investments, also know as FOI. which is quite... unbelievable since i failed my mid sem tests:X hahaha maybe its a sign! since i've been thinking whether i should drop finance altogethr and go for someth that would interest me more. but that would mean.. wasting of my time and my efforts in finance, andd.... hahahahaha oh wells. we'll see how it goes. need to work hard!

To my sheep who is getting her results tmr and to everyone else who is getting their results tmr, jiayou! hhahaa. and, give thanks in all circumstance yeah? praying for you guys!

im off to study and do my work!

2.21 am

Hello all.

Im just here to say that i'm sleepy right now and im heading off to bed (:

oh, andddd..... haha nvms.

gdnight'. miss yall.

haha, sorry if i sounded sad/negative or anyth in the previous post. it wasnt supposed to be that way..

anywayy, i was supposed to go for a run after piano class, but i didnt. AHHAHAHA.

i just ate eight grapes. and i realised that stalls dont actually sell grape juice. right? lol!





things to do tonight:
1) HR peer teaching notes
2) 2 finance quiz
3) read pfp proj notes.

Chocolates!

This chocolate is Heavenly ~

dont laugh at my laoya pok camera, and dont laugh at my WWII pencil case!

I woke up feeling a little heavy today. I went to school feeling a little heavier. I did projects feeling more heavy. I went for lecture with a more heavy head, and I fell asleep during lecture.

I have 1001 things to whine abt today, or probably even more. projects not working out, schools not working out, results not working out, everyth and anyth else that is not working out.

I could throw tantrums, I could stop doing whatever I was doing, I could go home, I could just run away. I could, I could, I could, but I didnt. If I did, it would be all about I. If I did, it would be all about Me. If I did, it would be all about myself. Notice the number of I's in this sentence.

Choices. we make choices and it leads us to consequences.

To end today, im feeling awesomely and utterly tired. But I still give Thanks.

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things to do today/before i sleep:
1) cut nails
2) charge ipod
3) cont reading my book
4) practise piano (hmmm, probably just read thru notes? AHHA, its so late alr!)
5) find audio clips of piano pieces and CHOOSE exam piece
6) proj- KSCC background

tryph needs to be more organized, less forgetful! needs to be on time!
am really tired now....... yawns..

OH!

OH!
smarty pants itchy fingers me, despite being late for project meeting this morning, HAHAH i went to cut/trim my fringe. HAHAHAH and now pimples at the area between my brows are so evident. this explains some pimple cream on my pimples now. HAHAH.

MY TRIM WAS QUITE GOOD OKAY. my friends couldnt tell the difference and that shows my awesomest skills that i have. HAHAHA. OKAY BYE!

not so awesome and quite very awesome

today, i had a super un-awesome lunch. all because me and Amrish was LAZY to queue up at those long long long queuezxcxsxzx. so we ended up eating from the stall that looked un-appetizing. and the food turned out.... un-appetizing too ): sad lunch. i had laksa, which tasted like.... idk, fishballsoup with chilli and coconut milk? and for those who knows that i really really really hate fishball.... sighe. HAHAHAHA.

after which, we both had totally nth to do, with com labs computers fully used up.. we just sat outside our tutorial room laughing at some songs that we found in his ipod.

ANYWAY, THATS NOT THE POINT.

e point is... i found the next most awesome milk tea that's in a bottle other than my blue bottle one. let me introduce it to your guys..

PREMIUM WUHE MILK TEA. ahahahahaa, its not veyr milky.. and it taste like it has pearls in it!

okay, so i dont have school tmr and its awesome! i shld.. exercise abit. HAHAH as usuall thats what i always say. HAHAHHA.

OKAY BYEBYE!

HAPPY 2009!

how did you guys spend your countdown?

i spent my countdown at my dearest vivian's house. HAHA i have the urge to post her kindergarden photo... but i think i shouldnt be so bad.

my countdown was awesome. we actually counted down. like we all stare at the tv and.. 10, 9, 8....2, 1! POP CHAMPANGE AND DIRTIED THE WHOLE FLOOR. that was the fun part. and the next ten minutes was probably cleaning up the place. HAHAH.

we stayed on. some played mahjong, some played cards, some played guitar, some chatting, some watching the tv, and i was on the couch lying down.. facing the tv, but actually observing what people was doing. AHHAHA a habit:X when girls come tgr, there'll be loud screeching screams and laughters.. and when guys come tgr... usually we'll see them on the floor, fighting wrestling taupoking etc. but it didnt happen this time! HAH.

my night or morning of celebration ended when i decided that i should stop tai-tiing and go home since it was close to 5 alr. took a cab home and i met a really funny taxi driver. oh btw, i got rejected by taxis like.... probably 5 times? either nets not working, or they were changing shift. but good also! i had a funny taxi driver entertaining me.

ANYWAY, HAPPY 2009 AND THO im not feeling very well today BUT GIVE THANKS AND BE JOYFUL FOR THIS IS ANOTHER NEW YEAR THAT THE LORD HAS MADE!



and..... yeah,
HAPPY 2009 to you, you, you, you, you and you! (pardon my laoya 2megapixel handphone camera).

interesting facts about 4 year olds

Growth Milestones - FOUR YEARS

"Growing self-reliance"


Can you believe that four years ago your child was born? Boy, "does time fly when you are having fun." Now you know why your parents used to say that you were growing up too fast. Ties to your apron strings will begin to loosen as the 4-year-old develops more independence and self-confidence. Before you know it, it will be time to start kindergarten. In previous generations, moms and dads learned what to expect of their child from their mother, grandmother or another family member. Today, most families are so scattered that parents do not have this help available. Therefore, do not hesitate to ask any questions you might have about your child's growth and development during the four year checkup. This is the reason for regular well-child exams.


Parenting and Behavioral

• The 4-year-old really enjoys playmates. At this stage the toddler will begin to play cooperatively with others.
• It is normal for children this age to have imaginary friends. Parents can sometimes use the youngster's imaginary "playmate" to their advantage (like getting your 4-year-old to do something you want him or her to do.)
• Limit television viewing to one hour per day. Do not use the TV as a baby sitter or it as a substitute for interaction with your child. Watch children's programs with your child when possible.
• Do not worry if your child becomes curious about body parts. This is normal at this age. Always use the correct terms for genitals. Modesty and a desire for privacy begin to emerge at this age. When your child starts to want privacy of his or her own, let your child know that you think this is good.
• Your child may continue to use a security object (such as a blanket, favorite stuffed toy, night light, etc.). This is normal and your youngster will give up the item when he or she is ready.
• If you are expecting another baby, discuss with your child's physician how to prepare your 4-year-old.
• Allow your child to participate in setting and cleaning up the table. Always praise him or her for a job well done.
• Provide some type of structured learning environment in preparation for kindergarten next year. Examples include preschool, Head Start or Sunday School. Show an interest in your child's preschool activities.
  

Discipline

• Discipline should be firm and consistent, but loving and understanding. Praise your child for his or her good behavior and accomplishments.
• Continue to allow your 4-year-old to make choices whenever possible but the choices should be limited to those you can live with ("red shirt or green shirt"). Never ask a 4-year-old an open question ("Do you want to take a bath") unless you are willing to accept the answer.
• Use the two "I's" of discipline (ignore or isolate) rather than the two "S's" (shouting or spanking). When disciplining, try to separate your child and his or her behavior ("I love you, but I do not like it when you touch the VCR.")
• Provide your 4-year-old with clearly stated limits along with an explanation of the consequences if rules are broken. Making children stand in the corner ("time out" by themselves for four minutes is usually an effective punishment. If you have any questions about your child's behavior, discuss them with the doctor.
• Meaningless threats are ineffective. Follow through with the previously stated consequences when rules are broken.
• Whenever possible, give reprimands privately.
• Always bear in mind the positive effects of praise.
  

Development

• Speech is almost always understandable.
• Can usually count from 1 to 10.
• Can walk on tiptoes, climb a ladder and ride a tricycle.
• May name and match three or four primary colors.
• Knows his or her own name.
• Correctly uses the pronoun "I."
• Children this age recognize gender differences and will correctly say "I am a girl" or "I am a boy."
• Can dress and undress with supervision but still has trouble with laces and buttons.
• Children this age also begin to be selective about what they wear.
• Holds and uses a pencil with good control. Can copy a cross, circle and possibly a square.
• Can to draw a person with a face, arms and legs.
• Engages in conversational "give-and-take."
• Can sing a song.
• Talks about his or her day's activities and experiences.
• Can identify emotions such as sadness, anger, anxiety and fear.
• Enjoys the companionship of other children; plays cooperatively and shows interest in other children's bodies.
  

Feeding

• The 4-year-old continues in a period of relatively slow growth. Average weight gain per year is only three to four pounds. Therefore, the appetite still is not what most parents (or grandparents) think it should be. Remember, feeding problems may arise if parents make their child eat more than he or she needs to, or show too much concern in what their child eats.
• Provide snacks rich in carbohydrates and limit high-fat, low nutrient foods.
• The 4-year-old can and usually insists on feeding himself or herself.
• Mealtime should be pleasant and food should never be forced. Provide nutritious foods and let your child decide what and how much to eat. Offer small portions with the availability of a second helping.
• The 4-year-old will often imitate peers in food likes and dislikes.
• Avoid nuts, hard candy, uncut grapes, hot dogs or raw vegetables. Control sweets and avoid junk food.
• Eat dinner together as a family whenever possible.
• Insist on good table manners and encourage pleasant conversation during meals.
• Turn the TV off during meals.
  

Sleep

• An afternoon nap may still be necessary.
• Fears of the dark, thunder, lightning, etc. are quite common at this age.
• Maintain a consistent bedtime and bedtime routine, using a night light, security blanket or toy are all ways to help lessen nighttime fears.
• Nightmares can wake a child up from sleep. They can be triggered by changes or stress.
• Reassure your child and put him or her back to bed.
  

Toilet Training

• By age 4, 95 percent of children are bowel trained.
• By age 4, 90 percent of children are dry in the daytime and 75 percent at night.
  

Safety

• Your child continues to require close supervision. Accidents continue to be the principal cause of death in children in this age group.
• Know where your child is at all times. A 4-year-old is too young to be roaming the neighborhood alone.
• If your home uses gas appliances, install and maintain carbon monoxide detectors.
• The purchase of a trampoline is not recommended because of the risk of serious injury.
• Insist that your home and car be smoke free.
• Select toys that are safe.
• Electrical tools, firearms, matches and poisons should be locked up, out of reach.
• The child should not have unsupervised access to, or ride a bike in, the street.
• Some 4-year-olds can be taught their full name, address and phone number.
• If bicycling, teach safety rules and insist on helmet use.
• It is too early to expect your child to look both ways before crossing the street. Supervise all street crossings.
• Continue to use a car seat or booster seat secured properly until the child weighs at least 60 pounds or his or her head is higher than the back of the rear seat. The greatest risk to your child's health continues to be motor vehicle accidents. Remember, it is impossible for you to protect your child during an accident by just holding him or her. Set a good example by always using a seat belt when driving.
• Always walk behind your car before backing out of the driveway.
• Many 4-year-olds are fairly good "swimmers," but knowing how to "swim" does not make the youngster water safe. Never leave a child unattended in a bathtub, even for a few seconds. Ensure that your child wears a life vest if boating.
• There is no such thing as a "child proof cap." Ingestion of toxic substances is common at this age. Keep syrup of Ipecac in the home to be used only as directed by your child's doctor or the poison control center.
• Never buy toys or other objects that can be cut or ingested. Suffocation by plastic bags and balloons still occurs at this age.
• Be especially careful when using power lawn mowers and other power tools.
• Test smoke detectors to ensure they are working properly.
• Continue to use a water proof sunscreen on your child before he or she goes outside. If possible, avoid the hours between 10 a.m. and 3 p.m. when the sun is the most dangerous.
• Advise your 4-year-old to be careful around strange dogs, especially ones that are eating.
• Begin to teach your child not to talk to strangers or accept food from strangers. Teach your child the first and last names of family members.
• Teach your child pedestrian safety ("look both ways before crossing the street").
  

Illnesses

• The 4-year-old experiences less respiratory infections, such as colds, ear infections and sinus infections than the previous year. Begin to teach good habits: washing his or her hands after using the toilet, putting his or her hands in front of his or her mouth before coughing or sneezing, and washing his or her hands after coughing or sneezing.
• Remember, most illnesses at this age are viral, which means antibiotics will not shorten the course of the illness.
  
  

Growing up is a process. How long you want to live depends on how well you nourish and take care of yourself today and every other single day. Many more years to come, more and more responsibilities gets added. with Joy, or with Sorrow, We make the decision. I want to come back and say, wow this was me when I was four! It's been a amazing journey thus far. many more to come! Memories!

Happy Sbirthday (:

i have come to a sudden realisation that anyone, and everyone whether i know personally or not personally, could be...

- my future school mate
- my future classmate
- my future groupmate
- my future colleague
- my future boss

thats how small singapore is....



it gets easier the next time and the next next time and the next next next time. IF at the very first time we decide to do what is right.

if you get what i mean, den you get what i mean. AHAHHA which i doubt no one would get what i mean. nvm i understand can liaoz. ehehe.

happymerryxmas!

one thing

what's the one thing in my life that matters the most?

motivations.

what gives you the motivation to pack your room?
-probably your mum, to avoid her constant nagging.

what give you the motivation to walk all the way down from the 6th floor of TP business school to cheers just to get a egg mayo sandwich?
-probably your hunger.

what gives you the motivation to take a shower?
-probably to avoid being smelly, to avoid people from smelling a smelly you.

what gives you the motivation to return your library books?
-probably to avoid paying the fines.

what gives you the motivation to do your assignments, projects and to study for test?
-probably for the diploma cert, to ensure a future.

what gives you the motivations to....
-get new clothes?
-cut your hair?
-come to school?
-be nice to your friends?
-love your parents, family?
-believe in a certain something?
-come to church?
-give your all to god?
-lay down your all?

people's acceptance? sheperd's TLC? people's perceived image of you? roles? responsibilities? routines? culture? pressure?
or, just for one cause?

whats your motivations today?
whats mine?



rising abovee..

ways to kill me

i was just discussing with someone, whom i think is vivian, that its very easy to kill me. just seal my mouth up with super glue and i'll die. NOT because im talkative, but because my nose is stuck (still) almost every single day and i cant breathe thru my nose...



well, i found another way that could kill. projects and tests and tutorialss.... ahhhh! hahahahahaa.



okie, anyway positive side is, im totally enjoying kelly services or also known as KSCC every monday morning despite having to be in sch BY 830am. well, thats because my supervisor's rather strict you see. but im totally enjoying it lah seriously. BUT THEN AGAIN, mondays are really horrible for me. because from 830am i've class all the way till 6pm. and the worst part is, i have personal financial planning tutorials and FUNDAMENTALS OF INVESTMENT tutorials ): hahahaha totally dont like finance.

ANYWAY, im really tired now and this post is really meaningless.

even youths grow weary, but mr mighty would carry me ^^

i will boast in the Lord my god... i will boast in the one who's Worthy (sings harmonising tune..)

practise practise practise practise..


OH IM SUPER EXCITED! TELL YOU ALL SOON. LOVE YALL!

eh eh eh, forgot to add, i had a superly awesome time with my netballers at siglap the other day^^

work work work work work

school's started and work is piling up. guess what? i'm supposed to come out with my peer teaching today but i have zero words on microsoft words. HAHAHAH.

okay gd luck to me in trying to complete my part, dont wanna be a free loader in the grp. and hallelujah 830am at kelly services tmr! see you guys!

classifying- revamping

i was thinking of classifying all my msn contacts to probably
2B05 (is this even the correct class? ahahahaha)
churchies
contacts
BVSS
and the etcs

hahaha sounds quite awesome right... HAHAH but i'm... not very free to do so luhh. OKAY BYE.

its been a tiring day. really tiring day. my eyes are literally closing now. my feet are killing me.
so much more things to be done...


oh helppp lord,.....

prissyler or prissylah

today i am gg to blog about prissyLAH. HAHAh she just said im irritating. i have zero idea wad to blog about so... hehehehehehehehe

pris say i cannot sign out..HAHAHAHA\

OKAY. ONE GOOD NEWS. MY SEXYY FRINGE IS BACKKK.. CAN SHOW YOU ALL SOME PICS. IF PRISSYLAH MANAGE TO SCAN IT OUT FOR ME.

ohhh her doggy(doggie) HAHAh so lame right. doggie. HHAHAHAHAH. hahaha stupid owner got lame dogGIE name. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. SO FUNNY.

wheres the peanut wheres the peanut wheres the peanut right nowwww......

SHOW YOU ALL MY FAV PPLE IN MY WHOLE TP LIFE!!(so far:X)
Esther the blacky, Joanne the xiao pang, erina the EH WHY YOU GOT NO NICK NAME AH! AND LASTLY ME THE FATTY!





oh, and see my fringe. scroll back up and see my fringe. damn chio right! HAHAHAHHAHAHAA.

stupid prissy laughing at me. idiot! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA

OKAY EBYEBYBEYBEYEBYEBYEBYEBEYBEBYEBEYBYEBYEBYEBYEBEYBYEBEYBYEBEYE

I FEEL LIKE TELLING YOU ALL THE BIG MOUTH FISH JOKE NOW ACTUALLY. HAHAHAHA BUTTTTTTT HAHAHAHAHA BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

i came and...

im leaving again...

HAHAHA I REALLY WANTED TO BLOG LAH. BUT I LAZY AGAIN. I LOVE YOU ALL.

GDNIGHT'!

CT retreat! and.. updates?

hahaha, i promised that i would blog when i get the pics from pris that we took during our ct retreat. hahahahaha, okay, i got it quite super long ago, but i couldnt be bothered to blog lahh! HAHAHAH.

here goes, oh! its only a few picture because a certain someone (not mentioning name), spoilt almost most of the nice pictures because.. aiya just hard to explain lah. and im so not gg to show the whole world what is sacred. HAHAHAH. so, only censored piccas can be shown (:


MEET MY CORE TEAM^^

look at someone's wide smile! the one on the lower left. white and shiney!!

a nice attempt of doing a self shot on a slipper. HAHAHHA. cool right.

TWO MONKEYS TRYING TO CLIMB AND SUCCESSFULLY CLIMBING THE TREE.

useless $2 yellow ball we bought from daiso. well, it helped as a float for some of us later on.

a day of fun, loving, sharing and committing to one another. and.... i declare myself a good swimmer! hehehehehe. guess why?

and, i found a damn good singer. not telling you who. hehehehehe. its my kind of songs. if you know what kind of songs i listen to.. HAHAH. one example? kate walsh's one of the singers that i love. gemma hayes? HAHAHA. yay awesome.

give me more give me more give me more....

i'll be back again. bahbyee!

i came and i left

okay i came here and i got too lazy to post.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeee

hello sunshine, hello world, hello kaypos!

Helllo! HAHAHA IM BACK.
from; Exams, bizart family day, HK, and everyth else. HAHAHAHAH

Aiya, i really dont know what to blog abt.

okay, how abt latest photo taken?

yeah. this is my lovely cg! everyone looking abit retarded with the little toy mic we have for praise.



exciting things that are coming up;
-sentosa with my coreteam tmr! coreteam retreat!!
-leadership camp! 10-12oct i think!
-new timetable, new classmates, new subjects!
-one day of packing room:x which happens to be on.. sunday or monday or tuesday or wednesday or thursday or friday or saturday... HAHAHHA


and, i've been having terrible nose issues since... for maybe a week or so alr. okay, fine! i've been having issues with my nose ever since, there was no ever since. because i have nose issues when i actually started to know what nose issues were. meaning like.. since i was 9-10 or 11 or 12 or 13 or 14 or 15 or 16 or 17 or 18. HAHAHAHAHAh


another thing, chuck is damn good. really. watch it! HAHA. cant wait for the next season. and YAY prison break season 4 is out. and did i even mention that i've finished all seasons of greys anatomy. oh and, i watched 9 episodes of chuck in a day. and.. How I Met Your Mother(HIMYM) is awesome too^^


FINALLY, play a game with you all. catch the similarities in this two super different pics. one which is sweaty smelly disgusting fishballed face because i went blading and the other one is just a random photo taken in a mrt. commmentt!! HAHAHAHA. (if anyone is actually reading)




GOODNIGHT AND GOODBYE AND YAY TMR WONT RAIN OKAY. IF IT RAINS, NO IT WONT RAIN. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


p.s everyone stop drinking milk. HAHAHAh which is quite pointless. okay maybe not. hahaha we've been drinking contaminated milk for the past.... 6 months? HAHA okay, i dont know if this is true but i think it is and whatever that i think is shall be. kuakuakua.


HAHAHA WHATS UP WITH MY KUAKUAKUA. hahahahahaa.


ohhh i had a superbly awesome durian cake for mummy's birthday. i need more durians.

HAHAHAHAHA. love you all! come back more often! HAHAHAHAHA.

no promises for when the next post will be. i like giving surprises!

SEE I JUST GAVE YOU GUYS A SUPER LONG POST. TSK. HAHAHAHAHAHHA.

CORETEAM AWAITS MY YEGG SANDWICH TMR! AND MAYBE POTATO SALAD. HAHAHAHAHA. IF I HAVE ENOUGH MAYO............ (you all shld know how much i love mayo. ahahahahhaa. that explains my ssssiiiizeeee:Z)

quick post before i go to bed

today is a happy day. hehehe. yay!!!
okay.

things i shld do tmr:
1) start studying! MBS tmr! finish all chaps ( HAHAH seemingly impossible!)
2) go running
3) do not be tempted by grey's anatomy
4) plan plan plan plan plan
5) pack table. find plain white sheets of paper to scribble notes on.
6) charge my laptop and mp3!
thats all for now..

if only there wasnt piano class tmr at 9am ): man. who goes for piano class at parkway parade at 9am! the shops not even open yet lah!

okay, dont complain dont complain. hehehehe. yay! at least when i go for piano class at 9am i wouldnt waste my day away!

OHHHH, next week's study break, anyone wanna study with me? (: *smiles sweetly*

hehehe goodnight world!

A Letter To My Fringe.

Dearest Fringe,

How have you been doing? It's the first time I'm writing you a letter.

I'm sorry I snipped you off. Although I spend very little time with you now, but that's because you simply dry too quickly, but I really miss you and I think of you all the time. Life has been quite bad without you. I constantly feel people staring at you. Do you feel uncomfortable with people staring at you? Sometimes, you are so energetic, I see you standing. It reminds me of a tweety bird. It's quite cute actually. Seeing how I resemble a tweety bird. But.... that's not exactly what I want. I need some peace. So please, come back soon.

And I really do love you so much. I can't express myself any more. I hope you do understand how I feel.

So Fringe, please grow quickly. Come back soon. Mummy misses you.

Love,
Tryphoza.

time.

i need it.



oh! in the coming week,
1) shall start studying on monday. i hope.
2) running regime starts again.
3) finish my last presentation for sem2.1
4) probably catch money no enough2 and... hahaha i dont know.
5) have more slp, less greys.


when it happens, it just happens. right?

grace.

oh, luck.

mindless post.

its not working. redbull's not working.

my eyes are closing, my eyes are closing. its getting heavier, and heavier.



somehow, as tired as i may be, i suddenly thought of whether meredith had actually woken up after drowning and being found by derek in greys. HAHAHAH! funny how my mind wanders, okay, sorry! it should be funny how im addicted to greys:X yikes!

STOP THOSE GREYS TRY!!

pysch, bulls and tryph

so. here i am, sitting down with a can of red bull, and my pysch textbook.

hopefully redbull works, because if it doesnt....... it equates to tryph sleeping and not studying(again) till the next morning and..... goodbye to my papers. HAH!


ANYWAY, i've cool cg members. one of them read that i was craving for durians and the way i kept harping on durian cg! durian cg!, she actually brought expensive durians to cg and all of us happily had durians tgr after cg! how sweeet is that? huh? thanks sarah kiong li yun^^


OKAY GOODBYE.

the last and the shiokest theory.

and oh, i just had 6 mangosteens, and i was saying like. let my last mangosteen be nice white and shiok. and guess wad, it really was nice white and damn shiok. its just another mentality of mine where the last bit of wadever food that im eating, have to be the shiokess and nicest.

den, it will satisfy me.

when the sock feels like a human

push try, push!
they always say sweetness comes after the bitterness? HAHAHHHAHAA. meow. suree.


there's presentation on thurs.
mbs access test on fri.
leadership exam on sat.
pyschology exam on sat.

annnddddd! i'm prepared for none. HAHAHAHAHA.

and then reality hits in,

Human Resource Management 26 Aug 08
Business Finance 27 Aug 08
Managing Business Systems 28 August 08

its main exams. to think i even said: nvm lah, i think last minute chionging works better. i thought it was another mid sems until another someone went, ehh its not half leh, its the whole thing. AHAHAHAHHA.

well well well.... i've..... 3 weeks plus plus to study for my papers. but... im not gonna start this week:X this week shall solely be for..... okay, shit i still need to study for leadership and pysch for this say. oh man.


anyhow, i've turned really black, i think i can join the blacky esther club where all the blackies hang out tgr! i should stop swimming, and.. start running. that sounds pretty awesome right?

and i shld stop my grey's and my pushing daisies for now.... untill after main exams i hope. den i'll get my hd, and i'll transfer how i met your mother and i will hide under my blanket and start staring into my laptop^^ how awesome is that! kinda keeps me motivated till the end of sem!

for now,..... bakkwa, meiji, hl strawberry, mos vanilla milkshake, red colour yakult, tori q, mango pomelo dessert, fried rice, durian..... and the list goes on. HAHAHAHA thats what im like craving for all the time luh huh. do not belittle my eating powers.

oh, my room is in such a huge mess. and i think sassy is adorably cute to the max. she's just the thing that would make your heart flutter and... you just wanna melt when she does all the cute stuffs. HAHAHAHAHA.

love you all! cherish my every post yeah? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! cant post any pictures because blogger refuses to let me do so.

and! my lappy is super lag now... HAHAHA i need a hd! all my fav shows are slowing my comp down, and i refuse to delete them before i watch it. soooo.....HAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHA. preferable a red hd. its a hint. to anyone who wishes to love me more to the max with 6pacs and yellow hair and purple underwear. AHAHHAA okay, i was just trying to rhyme! JUST JOKING^^

sings; joyful joyful we adore thee, god of glory god of love.... skips away.....

unsaid,unspoken.

wow, im updating quite often(ly) recently.

i'm exhausted. but i think i lost like 4325grams after a swim and some basketballing around. HAHAHAHAHs.


oh,..... i feeel some fever comingg. my nose is a constantly running tap. i took 2 cold panadol this aftnoon but, doesnt seem to work. hmmms. maybe i should take 3 tablets instead. HAHAHAHA.




i hope mbs proj would be awesome:X IM SORRY GUYS\/^^\/ love you all very much.

thoughts
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alrightyy, i shall go pop some drugs and go to bed soon. (after this post and bidding farewell to the world)




OH, I LIKE KATE WALSH:x intro-ed by shameeeen. beginning to love my bunch of friends. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. even though sometimes i dont know what they are talking abt (what? are you all talking abt an actor? or a movie? or a song?) HAHAHAHAHAH, but stilllll. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA NIGHT YOU ALL!

say hi to priscilla AMEDEE !
(no idea why my eyes are so big in this pic. but ANYWAY, LOOK AT THE STAR, NOT ME)

im currently lying on my bed typing this post. im so bored. feel so lazy to go to sch for a small mini presentation for leadership. WHY CANT THEY JUST GO AHEAD WITH A FULL SCALE PRESENTATION, beats having to present twice right!

and... i should be gg to bathe now because... i need to be in sch at 3.30pm. i wanna go shopping.
OH, i saw rainbow around the moon yesterday night!!! like a circle of rainbow around the moon! dont be envious pls!



BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

awesome night.

Just came home from serangoon mac. Had a fruitful talk, no hiding, no twisting of words, just plainly sharing and growing in the Lord. I'm thankful for times like this.







Blessss as we toil and plant seeeds! I'm doing my part, are you? (:

LIZARDS!

HI PRIS. THIS IS A SUPER CUTE LIZARD. JUST FOR YOUUU! its a hiphop lizard. HAHAHA.


that stupid girl ask me to update someth abt lizards, so here you go. a biggie lizard for you^^


my gosh, i cant believe i actualyl went to serach for a lizard picture when i could have studied:X HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

OFF TO GO STUDY FOR SAT MORNING'S FINANCE TEST \/^^\/

invasion of the pimpless.... pictures (:

IM ON HOLIDAYS. haahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahhahahaa. i wish i could carry on laughing for the rest of the post! but nah, HAHAHAHA. this is gonna be a very veyr veyr messy post! but I DONT CARE. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

CYL jumping shot! eh! its my first time okay!


and oh, i skipped running just now for the same reason because i was lazy! OH WELL, i shall make it up by gg swimming tmr.

i watched ah long ptd ltd online just now, and it was damn funny. the part where the "just follow law" security guard came out and went on about the following law thing. HAHAH it was so funny lah! my next up movie would be.... maybe ratoiellle? how do you spell that. ratotuille? aiya, yea the one with the mouse and the cheese. or maybe chron of narnia(the first one!), or stomp the yard? oh man! what i really really wanna watch is leap years actually, but i dont have it.

speaking of which, reminds me of gg to msia to shop soon.


the other day, i was at cheng's 21st. hahaha it was damn cool luh! and yl was asking me how i would celebrate it, and same old answer, no need celebrate one lah! HAHHAHA. i remember 2 years ago i told mar and the netballers to planned me a surprise party, and they did! that was my last urge of a birthday party. HAHAH.



and i finally caught up with my lovely girl because of cheng's 21st! more lovely catchups soon! we can drink ketchup tgr!! presenting to you, my favouritest girl: yl and me!


im supposed to pack my room. but HAHAHAHA. welll, something more impt would be, ABSOLUT BIZART CAMPAIGN! i dont have the whole pic, but heres da amanda and myself! (and the ghost at the back, PRIS aka ---- ---) :x HAHAA I DID NOT SPELL THAT OUT. I LOVE YOU BABE!

oh, i finallly have gotten my piano exam done with. now i feel like getting myself a cup of icy cold..... i dont know wad. HAHA just something icy cold.


okay, miss blacky is in msia for church camp, joannes working, yl's in camp, design pple have sch...... HAHAHAH SOMEONE GO SHOPPING WITH ME PLS? ):):

since im at my sch pple, so, some photos of my fav hangout pple in sch!!

me and uglyBLACKY. she's ugly here cos of FROGGY ( if you get what i mean:X)


ham, joanne and i.!

and erina! you look so pretty here lah! i wanted to put the pic of you and ham, the one where he look damn niang, but i decided not to, and to put a pretty pic of you instead!!


OH, HOW COULD I EVEN FORGET! THE WINNING TEAM OF $200 HARD CASH FROM CAPTAIN'S BALL COMPETITION!

alrights, i shall end off with the oldie picture (cheng's 21st)! abit blurry tho:x

ps. i am not lazy

worthy is the lamb...,not the aches and the sores...

its been long. hahaha. well, i've been procrastinating since..... i came home. im supposed to do my BOE proposal but.. HAHAHA, i just cannot start doing because im lazy. lol. HAHAHAH.

well, life have been pretty much fun and its been funner with a whole bunch of crazy ppl-vivi,ahbe,pris,liping,clarice.......

hahaha. my lovely team tgr with shuhfen, jiajia and persie won the captain ball thingy. so awesome luh. we were all stressed out before the match because we saw how light blue played. lol, and everyone kept coming: try, quan kao ni men the team liaozz. oh man, imagine the stress, and we havent even started a match whilst the rest had alr played a game or two.

so all of us came home burnt, aching, red etcetc. lol. but, it was worth it man. had a great time laughing at one another, talking to one another and most imptly, there's more that gonna come because we've 200 bucks. HAHAH great food coming up. so awesome right.

oh! yknow, im pretty smart and my timetable's not that screwed up anymore. the longest break i have now is just 3 hours. no longer 6pathetic hours.


oh oh oh! the best thing. IMPOSTOR service this sat 7pm!


so now, i've gotta go do my finance tutorial, my BOE proposal and most imptly, check up my timetable to see wad notes i have to print to prepare for tmr's lecture!


bye you all! love all of you very much! [^^]

letting go, letting god.

4 simple words: letting go, letting god.



hohoho . recently i've been thinking about, where else and how else can i serve god in? like,i've been thinking about joining ministries- singing, worship, drama, dance etc etc, for a very long time, but i've nv really done anyth about it to really go and join a ministry. i've been thinking, hmmmmmmmm....... maybe if i join, i can grow even more and can serve more. hahahahaha, but then, i suddenly had a revelation:X HAHAHAHA. serving god doesnt literally means SERVING (as in a ministry). i can serve in other areas as well. and thus,!

1) improve my guitar skills- maybe i can be a world famous guitarist!
2) play my piano well (for now)- might be in use for the future HAHAHAH.
3) letting go, letting god in everything that i do.


hohohoho, excited for whats to come.

not cockroach and fishball anymore.

since bunny wants me to blog. so here i am blogging. please comment okay bunny. HAHAHAHAH. your name's in the post.

soooooo.... after the long escape from the cockroach and the fishball, im back! well.. nth much happened recently other than my soooo terrible foodpoisoning 1 day before 2 of my papers. other than that.. im so happy so many people are coming to tp! hohohoho. and i've been slacking the whole afternoon. time to get work done and i'll have my well deserved 2 months holidays(issit?) ! AHAHAHA. yay!

i love you all!

oh! and since azri tagged me. here it is^^ \/

1. my ex is: EXams^^
2. maybe i should: stop wasting time online and go study :X
3. i love: daddy, mummy, jiejie, korkor, sassy, yl, cheng, joyce, vivian, liping, jen + dmm, tp friends, bv friends, netballers, anddd... you'll know it if i love you! oh yes, in no order of importance, all equally impt.
4. i don’t understand: why people can love fishball and fishcake.
5. i lose: things easily.
6. people say i’m: HOT:x ( not a lie please!)
7. love is: 1cor13
8. somewhere, someone is: secretely thinking of me! HAHAHAHHA. i know it. i know it. the person reading this is thinking of me^^
9. i will always: remember what changed during a camp on my birthday 2 years ago. 14/06/2006
10. forever is: a word that will make me sing, forever god is faithful, forever god is strong, forever god is with us, forever... and ever.. forever.
11. i never want to: be someone useless.
12. i think the current US president: i dont know politics
13. when i wake up in the morning: i on the heater and go back to sleep
14. my past was: the past. HAHAHAH.
15. i get annoyed when: kids scream and shout and irritates me on the buses, on trains, or anywhere near me.
16. parties are for: people to have a party? HAHAHAH.
17. my dog is: SASSY.
18. my cat is: sassy's enemy.
19. kisses are the best when: its from someone you know you're gonna be with and get married to and have a future tgr^^
20. tomorrow: i have to study for bizstats exam on tues.
21. i really want: a new phone. probably the 5 megapix one:X, a fan installed in my room.
22. i have low tolerance for people who: kids:X

fishball and cockroach

today.

is the day i ate 1 FISHBALL. HAH. amazed at myself. and no, i still do not like it, and i think i wont attempt to try it again.

is the day i fought a battle with a cockroach that flew into my wardrobe. but apparently, it was missing when i came back with baygon and... i starting flipping thru the clothes at first with the help of my sis, and den i took a careful half hour to check that the stupid cockroach has flown away. yes, it was a flying cockroach.

fishball and cockroach

today.

is the day i ate 1 FISHBALL. HAH. amazed at myself. and no, i still do not like it, and i think i wont attempt to try it again.

is the day i fought a battle with a cockroach that flew into my wardrobe. but apparently, it was missing when i came back with baygon and... i starting flipping thru the clothes at first with the help of my sis, and den i took a careful half hour to check that the stupid cockroach has flown away. yes, it was a flying cockroach.

overwhelmed by school ):

sighe. schools overwhelming me. still in midst of conquering. am not able to at the moment. sighe. this is shit. seriously.

carelessly left out one page of my article for my econs proj. and yes, the project is now alr in the stupid bird hole, or according to joyce, the pigeon hole, awaiting for its turn. and my plot will soon be discovered. ah, whatever shit. typing nonsense now. just emailed him, i hope he'll be gracious enough.

sighe, i thought i could have the sunday to study and do proj. but no more. ): god zhen hao.

monday- BIZSTATS test
wed- JAP test/ ECONS presentation
fri- ACC test/ POM submission



thanks.

irritating projects.

bah. feeling irritated by my stupid econs proj. arg. and it doesnt really help by having a tutor that kinda make you do 2 times work. eg, making you type out your analysis and present to him in freaking POINT FORM and later to him telling you that it has to be in ESSAY FORM. wth! he's the one who said can hand in, in point form and it was him also who said it has to be in essay form. 2 times work right. ARGGG. FREAKIING PISSED OFF. YEAH IM SORRY BUT I REALLY AM PISSED OFF!



sighe. what is the world becoming into. negativity is in me now.scram.

sassy's stuffs

sassy vomitted. and i cleared it! accomplishment! tried looking for a toy for her again, but couldnt find. sad thing.

cat>dog?

how about this?

(cats fighting sounds)
dad: sassy dont go! wait the cats bite you!

run, yogurt, lunchbox!

This is so exciting. I bought myself a small little lunchbox which I have been wanting to buy since...... long time ago. This is going to be so exciting. I can prepare my lunch before going to school. Hopefully i will wake up since school starts at 9am everyday. brrrrr.

Anddd, did I say I love Cold Storage? Cold Storage is really cold. HAHAHAHA. Okay, so I bought one huge tube of yogurt yay yay, corn flakes and tamps! Healthy living here i come.

And, i just came back from a run. The wind was awesome man. It was soooo cooling, I didnt even feel tired. Dont know if thats a good thing or not, BUT, HAHAHAH, I ran. Finally, after like... HAHAHAH okay, not too long ago.

Am so excited over my new lunch box. yay yay yay yay yay.

ouhhhh! I also went into the pet store to look for a toy for Sassy, cause apparently she lost her own toy and have no toy to play now! BUT THEN... I couldn't find anything nice... so, I didnt buy any.

wahhh, spent alot of money today. But... feeling so satisfied. yoyoyo.

today marks the 3rd year that i've been in church. HAHA. yea, no big deal... but its some big deal for me okayyy....
HAHAH.


BYEBYE! I SIAN DIAO TO TYPE.

past posts.

well i found interesting blogpost which i posted long long time ago. i was re-reading them... and.. found something.. that i really need, and YOU really need:X HAHAHA



sept 19, 2006 (refer to post before this to find articles on lovee)

what does it really mean to love?



"to love is to give someone the ability t break you down. but trusting that they wont. love in itself is a selfless act. " Mariam.



so, how do you know if you're giving enough love? and, how do you know that the person knows that you are loving that person by the certain things that you do.



if the person don't know that you are loving them, showing love would be pointless. ?? im making myself confused now.



how do you know that by doing some things you are actually loving the person? sometimes, some things you do, accidentally LOVED the person in some way, but you dont know. yet sometimes, some things you do, PURPOSELY want to love the person but the person dont realise it?



love is something very simple yet complicated.

have you ever loved someone until you think that you're not loving enough? if love is a routine, i rather not love.



to love god, is to love his people. to love his people, is to love god. how much will you love?







hahahaha. okayy.
goodnight byebye!

1 banana and 5 grapes

i had a new haircut and i look like a little girl!!

anyway, my slippers broke on sat while i was walking at centerpoint waiting for someone. lol. i was so embaressed i just.. stood there and waited for help. AND! because of that, i have new shoes now! hahhahaa, shoes that i wont buy because i'll go, i now in poly, also wont wear shoeeeee so waste moneyyyy....
so im now searching for new slippers. (my previous ones were 5bucks from tpy:x) BUT IM CLASS OKAYY. AHAHAHAHHAHA.

soooooo... we finished business stats assignment 1 which is 5%. gotta start researching on my NIHON TEIEN(japanese garden) for my jap project. and also.... for POM, progress report due on 26nov.

just did some reading on marketing, okay just scanning thru. and i didnt go for lecture last week and am intending to pon it tmr too:x HAHAh better not.

anyway... MUNCHY's opened at tpy. omg so near.


i ate 1 banana and 5 grapes and realised that i'd brushed my teeth. HAHAHAHAHAHA dirty girl gonna slp now... AHAHAHAHAHAHHA quiet lah. its MY teeth! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

im a little teapot, short and stout

mann. i feel like a little teapot. ): HAHAHHA.

sch's been really tiring. waking up at 9am everyday and ending at 4pm! welll, except for THURSDAY which is like my favouritest day in the whole week... I DONT HAVE SCH. but stilll, im sooooooo tired ): ): ihateschool!!!!

i bought myself a can of guilinggao and im so excited, im gg to eat it after dinner. HAHAHAHHA.

ANYWAYYYYYYYYY..... I REALLY REALLY HATE BUSINESS STATS OMG. ITS LIKE MATH MATH, LIKE YEA MATH, MATH! OMG. and! POM is equally boring.!! that new tutor uses up the full TWO hours for his tutorials and the worse thing is... ITS SO BORING.

this is more of a whining post right. HAHAHAHAHAH. okay nvm....

i broke my "i must not pon any lectures and i will do all my tutorial hw" rule in just 2 weeks): MAN. i need t pull my miserable gpa score up and that means i need to study and that means i'll cry): OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

and.... why dont i have any special talent? im not even smart): whhhyyyyyyy......

i think.... im here for a reason.

yo! haha, yeah changed my skin. hehehehee. aiya, i like LJ lah k!

anyway, im very smelly now. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
anyway, i ran on tues, and i ran today too^^ HAHAHAHA. and i like my profile picture!!

i dont know why i always dont have anything to blog about.


okay.... it seems like my hols are ending. but, my holidays feels like it havent started at all!!! ):

dad went to tokyo and he's coming back today! he didnt reply my msges lah! or anyone else's msges.! !!!!!!!!!


okay bye. i like my skin.

finallyback!

HAHAHAHAHAH. man, the past few many many weeks( okay contradicting. few many many. HAHAH) have been outrageously tiring! and maybe i could add, stressful! HAHAAHHA.

cant believe exams are coming. stressedddddd. lol.

have been eating alot alot alot again recently. HAHAHAH.

sasssssyyyy soooooooo smeellllllyyyyyyyyyy...............

BYEBYE

1) completed my BOB THE BUILDER LAW FIRM VIRTUE AND TRUTH presentation and proj^^

-why virtue and truth behind the bob the builder law firm? AHHAHA, this is quite lame, but virtue and truth was actually our motto for the law firm but we kinda forgot to change the font size blah blah, and we just anyhowly coked to teacher that its part of our law firm's name and not a motto. HAHA!

2) have gotten back my papers. not that bad. passed everything(:

3) i must study know....

4) coloured contact lens^^

5) fever-ed and mc-ed for 2 days

6) forgot to hand in my mc. HAHA.

7) i was a free loader at sugarloaf cafe today:x

8) i like the song assuredly yours^^

9) i dont like pple not replying my smses): makes me feel insecure

10) daddy bought dark red cherries. loveeeeeeeeeee.

okay byebye!

HHAHAHAHA NEW SONG. AND I UPDATED(: HAHAHA, THERE IM UPDATING.

HAHAHHAHA OKAY. I DID DAMN WELL FOR ECONS. HAHAHA SURPRISE. HAHAHAHAA. NVM. OKAY BEBYEBYEBYEBYEBEBYE!

hmmmm, what can compare to this? hehehehe.


now what?

hmmm, its about 2 hours to the end of today.

well, this could be probably the most memorable 17th bday. things/people i nv expected to appear did. things we thought that couldnt be shared, were shared. thoughts, daily lives, expectations, and whatever you mentioned. im glad i went, im glad that there're pple arnd who are true, im glad that there're still pple arnd who really care.
well, the expected didnt happen, but the unexpected happened.

well, ..... i guess, everything changes. people change. lives change. emotions change. character change. everything. yes, everything.


heh, shall end with a sentence that keeps appearing.
a wrong that went too wrong and even wronger and wrongerer and wrongererer......................

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA, if you get what i mean.

): im feeling sick! maybe i caught the pox-y germs :x dont kill me!

kinda have the fever flu feeling up in my head, up in my head. i've a swollen eyelid from yesterday, and yesterday i had a swollen lip.all these have made me rather self conscious and insecure lately. hahahaa, maybe got unrepented sins:x HAHAHA.

anyway, despite all these "shitty" stuffs HAHAH!, making me feel insecure and self-conscious, god still spoke to me. AHAHAH, well, its not all about me okayy!! HAHAH.


to you,
HEH. KNOW WHAT? I CANT WAIT FOR TUESDAY AS WELL. good time to catch up with ya (: <33 dear!


OKAY TIME TO GO BATHE AND DO MY STUFFS. BYE BYE BYE!(sings along to britney's tune, was it even sung by her??)



----edit part2---------------------
oh yah, i suddenly remembered that, i had a really bad night last night. i dreamt of me being "punished" like in a prison. den i had the death sentence. so i got shot once in the back of my head, one at my upper back, and another one at my spine. not gun shot, but like a needle shot that comes out from a gun? yeah, and the thing was, i felt painful but i didnt die. and at that time, i acted as if i died, so that to escape from really dying. and i remember telling god, GOD, SINCE YOU DIDNT LET ME DIE, THIS MUST BE A MISTAKE. SAVE ME! and then, at last i felt very guilty for acting dead, but i still wanted to run away. and i cant rmb what happened next, all i knew was, i was kinda sneezing all the way while i was sleeping. like in real life, i was sneezing. my bed was filled with tissues the next morning.

HAH. im feeling so sick, i feel like dying. so BYE guys!

hello! hopefully a more meaningful post this time :x


think life's really like a circle. heh. dont knw why but, if you realised, when you come to a point, you'll just start thinking, why am i doing all these? and then ponder about it day and night, and still come back to the same conclusion of doing it all over again. heh.

been hearing/reading and even myself have been saying: i know what i should do, but im simply not doing it. i know what is right, but i dont want to do it or rather, i dont feel like doing it.
things get "badder" if you leave it this way. hahahaha, well, like i always say: life's all about choices. its either the right choice or the wrong choice that you made. of course, when you make a wrong choice, you can always take a U-TURN, and say: opps! wrong way! but, how many times do you actually want to go through that long detour(heh i hope i used the correct word:x)? 10 times? 20 times? 30 times? sometimes making the right choice would be like a thousand times more difficult than making one wrong choice. BUT, based on logic, which one takes a faster time? heh! of course the right choice!

HAHAHAHHA, now, i forgot why i just typed those. i dont even know how t continue typing. ehehehhee. another lousy post ):

well, the main thing is! CHOICES! i thought of another example:X you want to beome skinny right, of course you choose the low fat stuffs. where got you suddenly go choose like a super high in fat one and den claim that you want to lose weight right! AHAHAHAH.

------------------ end of grandmother story--------------------------

OKAY! 2 papers down. next, CSA and ACCT! hehehehehhee. comeon, just two more days and i can sleep no longer at 3am anymore. hehehehehehe. YAY! EXCITED.


yah, okay, give you all one verse to think about. dont know why this verse but, yeah. JUST READ LAH!

Philippians 2:14-16 (New International Version)
14Do everything without complaining or arguing, 15so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe 16as you hold out[a] the word of life—in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.

new life version
14 Be glad you can do the things you should be doing. Do all things without arguing and talking about how you wish you did not have to do them. 15 In that way, you can prove yourselves to be without blame. You are God's children and no one can talk against you, even in a sin-loving and sin-sick world. You are to shine as lights among the sinful people of this world. 16 Take a strong hold on the Word of Life. Then when Christ comes again, I will be happy that I did not work with you for nothing.

i amaze myself sometimes. guess what i was doing. i was sewing my jeans. damn cool right. HAHAHA.

so parents are gone to.... aye,.. china? taiwan? heheh i dont know.

aye why when i always thought i had alot to type den come here den nth to type one.

okay, hmmm, lets see, i got myself a laptop, revised org beh just now, and i've 4 test coming up next week. hohoho.

i've been plagued(how do i even spell it): ) by headaches and neck aches. killing me. sassy very cute. and i want to drink sugar cane juice NOW. hehehehehehehhehehehehehhee.

wow. i've really been gone for a very very very very very very very very long time right. HAHAHAHA. but YAY! i thought no one reads my blog! but hohoho, look! got ppl miss me :x

hmm, this whole time that i've been absent from this blogging world was.... hmmm, rather eventful? HAH.

sch's been great. lots of fun and fun pple of course. and lots of food too!!

i thought i had alot to blog just now, but suddenly my mind's like blank. HAHAHA. so i'll drop by again soon :x


andddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd...................................................
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm, IT was a joke.

i think doctors fever medicine are like 10 times better den panadol. i took panadol actifast last night and my fever didnt go down AT ALL. after taking doctors fever and pain medicine my fever went down like so quickly and the best thing is i dont feel as terrible! and i think the pink cough syrup taste 29 times better than the blackbrown one!


hehehe, i was just randomly thinking, how many of you sheeps actually get to speak into your shepherd's life! HAHAHAHAH. i've always thought it was the other way round. hehehe. two way communication right!! ahahahahaa. pohchenglee. i know you hate me adding your surname. HAHAHAHHA. but nvm lah i like. HAHAHAHA AYE THIS IS SO RANDOM. OKAY BYEBYE!


i love this family of god.....................................................

okay, so im back from TERTIARY camp. hahaha.

well, i think god was really preparing me to move on to tertiary during missions. why? because, i felt like i was doing missions work there! HAHAHA. the size, games, everything else? HAHAHA. well, didnt meet my second objective of receiving a vision from god for my journey in tertiary :( sad huh. my thoughts are all over now, so bear with me. what god spoke to me was the same as in missions. lol. the word SAME. god once again reminded me that he didnt die for me on the cross only in youth. man, what warp theory is that! he died for me even in tertiary man.! the main point is: god died for me!

during the whole camp, what amazed me was: the ppl in tertiary are also on fire for god. they're mad abt evaxing too! on wednesday itself, all of us were as nexus to experience some healing thing and after that, pastor jasmine poon(okay, she fell! climax of the day) challenged us to go and share the gospel, and the most number of contacts from each poly will win. yes, its a game. so in a short span of 15 mins, me+joycelyn+peichyi, shared the gospel to two person, and got contacts from 3 person. wow, i cant believe i actually shared christ to someone older than me! man. i mean, SHE OLDER DEN ME LEH! AND I DRAW BRIDGE DIAGRAM. cool thing.

next up, while on the way back from bedok after having lunch with the tertiary pple after breaking camp, as usual i took a cab home. i had alot of thoughts in my head while in the camp. i had thoughts like maybe i should be a taxi driver in the future and play christian songs on my stereo, and those who sits in my cab, have to listen to gospel music and i'd share to everyone that step into my cab the gospel. then after that i suddenly thought of/remembered pastor shirley mentioning about her having a large circle of friends and she'd take all opportunities to make friends/share gospel to people she meet. for example the cab driver. and at that point, i thought of the missions team and the people in thai, about how they led a evangelistic lifestyle, and unknowingly, my hand stretched into my bag to take out the invite cards for easter. and at that point, i suddenly 'woke up' and my hand immediately went back into the bag putting where the cards were from. note* all the while there were some chinese song playing on his stereo which sounded abit like chinese new year songs. and then, i suddenly heard: ye su something something. wo de xin jiao gei ni. hallelujah. and some words that sounded like a praise song. walao, imagine that, i was like totally blown away. what i thought of happening was actually happening! MAYBE I GOT GIFT OF PROPHESY ^^.

okay i dont know how to continue typing. my thoughts are really all over now. hahahaha. okay im gg to copy and paste this in bloggggggerrr^^\/.

ohh, realised i havent blogged about missionss :x

presenting to you, THE MISSIONS TEAM!

our living conditions??

waiting for christine to finish her bath. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. insiders*

talking about love? let me tell you what love really is. NICE( the sister that brought us around), christine and i, took a mini bus, followed by a sampan, den a motorbike (shhh, aye dont tell mummy and daddy ah!), den another sampan?, and a very veyr long walk under the hot sun, just to have a mini cg with those two kids! love? love? love? stop and think, do you all love me this much? HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHE.

service day!! (:(:

this was our le-mans vehicle, where we squeezed at the back.

check this out, they have a violinist.

you know, their love for pple is really, wow, its so amazing, i've learnt t appreciate service day! what they did? they went to have a mini church service at this ulu place about 1.5 hrs drive away from nakornpathom? because these people dont have cash to come for service all the way the road journey.

they were sharing testimony about this gun shot. they were having cg the other time, and someone fired a shot and it totally missed everybody and hit the wall. cool.

wow, superstar ben! HAHHA. aye, see the little girl at the back? she's shasha, pastor chaiwit daughter. she's 6, she knows english, french, chinese and thai. shes totally lovely. im serious. come on, coming from someone who hates kids. she like probably my favouritest kid in the whole wideyy worlldyyyy.

yuyu, we missed you so much!!!!! HAHAHHAHA.

high school grp after cg! girls!

high school group! guys! they want more guys tooo!!!

the careleader for high school group. he teaches french every sunday morning for this thing calls hope club where pple can go learn other skills. he's only 17!! one thing that made me keep looking at him was his gold watch and his big gold ring. HAHHA. he even wears it to school. LOOK!

on the way to airport to take plane back to sing! inside LE-MANS!!

changed perspectives and changed heart. hohoho. thank god. also! met alot of fun people there. anyway, i didnt post all the pictures. cos it gg to take the whole day!

last but not least, presenting to you, the beautiful................ legs (its a lie its a lie its a lie its a lie its a lie), DENISE LEONG.

i wonder why mum always find things(housework obviously) to do and end up all being grumpy and whiny saying nobody wants to help. mothers.

HAHAHAHA. bye! to avoid storms, im gg hiding in my room(:

ever tried drinking coffee at 12:30am ++ and still slept soundly at 1:30am++

hazelnut white coffee. rocks!

i hate CNY. ahhahahaha. okay not that much. its just that its like "JUDGEMENT DAY". ahhaha. everybody will just go on and on and on about how fat you become, how tall you become, how your results have gotten, and worse still!! CNY just shows how much you can eat ^^ like me (: HAHAHAHHAHA.

byebye!

oh yes, im back!

im so hungry i actually feel like vomitting ):

hehehehe. i have a sudden craving for rochor tauheuy now. HAHAHAH. like the best time to eat tauhuey in the morning. just feels right.

1) i think the black hair spray i bought smells like cough syrup. and it acts very well as a gel(?) hairspray. it kept all my fringe from dropping.
2) im very jing zhang( nervous/excited/scared....etc) now.
3) what if i cannot go anywhere after i see my results?
4) what if i do damn well? AHHAHA.
5) if i go to sch tmr and see a few blonde haired guy still being able to take results, i'll be damn angry cos i just wasted money and it made my hair smelly. IT RHYMES! money and smelly!
6) i figured out how to play a small part of awesome god.
7) i think my hair is long.
8) i dont like being a receptionist because i screwed up the calls. HAHAHA. the damn scary feeling.
9) i am gg to be :to the ends of the earth...... HAHAHA. chenglee, you undstnd?
10) i dont think i'll commit sucide if i do badly, BUT if i disappear from the world, maybe you can try finding me in ECP, stadiums(slowly find HA HA), boonkeng(probably not. go there and eat macs? and get reminded of studying? AHHAH. aye i might okay!), at home.
11) i think sassy is quite cute. esp the way she wakes me up.
12) im scared.
13) im scared.
14) im scared.
15) im scared.
16) im scared.
17) im scared.
18) im scared.
19) im scared.
20) im scared.

would you rather be skinny and shapeless or fat and shapely? shapeless as in really straight, no curves. LOL.

): am very tired now.

my tummy isnt well since last night. indigestion? rarrr. yknow like you shit cannot shit, vomit cannot vomit? HAHAHHA.

work was... slack.

): im feeling very.................. worried? scared? ahahahahhaha. i dont know man. just dont feel good. grahh.

so unsure, so uncertain, its fading.

hello did i say daddy got new car? its very cool. got this map thing that directs us to the place where we want to go. yes she talks. and got TV! hahahahaha.

also got picture of my smashed potatoes and my honey flakes. show you all!





looks nice right! i bet you all wanna eat! dont let you all eat!

heheh. i made honey flakes. tastes very nice okayy! hahaha. i also made smashed potatoes!

i dont like blogger.

i feel like eating a choc fudge sundae from macs now. :/:/:/

im feeling very lazy to go for a run. i mean its finally sunny and im like all geared up to run. but you know, the first time when you start running again after not running for like 29000000000000000000000000months? the feeling kinda sucks. HAHAHAHA.

aye! i havent been watching prison break for, i dont know how long alr! HAHAHHA.

i should have taken my lunch ): i ate so much junk! HAHAHAHA. nehmind laah~~~HAHAHAHAH.

i feel like typing like a chunk a chunk a chunk a long long post. but i've nth to type. HAHAHAHA. okok.

im praying hard my reds dont come when im on holiday ):):):

AYE IM VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY BORED NOW. LIKE SIANNXSZXSSAZSXSXZSCXASXZSSSXXZZSX!!

HAHAHA. i just found out something.

MY FAMILY MEMBERS ARE DAMN GREEDY PEOPLE! netballers, i think its genes passed down. seriously.

yesterday, saw daddy with a LARGE bowl of icecream! he couldnt even finish it lah. greedy or not you tell me.!!

today, saw ntuc bag FULL WITH PACKETS AND PACKETS of peanuts. greedy or not you tell me.!!

the other time, saw me snatching jelly from netballers. greedy or not you tell me.!!

sassy, everything also want to eat. rubber band, tissue paper, anything you name it. greeedy or not you tell me.!!

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

no wonder i also one kind.

anyhow, IM PAYING ADULT FARE ALR. YOU KNOW ITS SO EXPENSIVE! FROM PARKWAY TO MY HOUSE IS A WOOPING $1.60 LEHH!! WALAO!! I SO GEK SIM! EVEN THOUGH I WONT THINK TWICE BEFORE I STEP INTO A CAB, BUT ITS DIFFERENT LAH! I MEAN I USED TO TAKE WHAT 40CENTS BUS RIDE, AND NOW I'VE TO PAY $1.60):

geksimgeksimgeksim!!!

oh, i forgot what i wanted to type.

i managed to cough out a tiny bit of my phlem(?) which was making me feel sick the whole time. hehehehe.


piano lessons gg to start in feb. :/:/ aiyo. HAHAHAHHAHAHAA.

I WOKE UP AT 9.15AM. I CHANGED HOPE-ING(how to spell hope-ing? hoping?hopeing??) THAT I WILL RUN. BUT I FELT LAZY SO I DIDNT RUN IN THE END.

I BROUGHT SASSY THE SMELLY WITH JIEJIE TO GO WALKWALK/GAIGAI DEN BROUGHT HER TO PLAYGROUND TO DIG SAND. HAHAHAHA.

DEN, WE CAME HOME AND BATHE THE SMELLY AND NOW SHES NOT SMELLY ANYMORE! WOOOO.

hahahhahhahahahaha. i felt like i was in primary school typing a composition on the topic: my morning. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. okay. sounds like a primary compo right? hiak hiak hiak.

YAY. IM GG FOR A HOLIDAY! (:

its been 9 days? that i've been sleeping in mummy's room. HAHAHAHA.

the aircon blows directly at me but thats the price i have to pay if i wanna sleep near my phone. HAHAHAHAA. okayy. enough of the air con. yknow what? I FOUND OUT A WAY TO NOT LISTEN TO SYMPHONIES WHEN IM SLEEPING. hahahahahaha. if you know me well, i sleep with two pilllows and 1 bolster. and because the bed im sleeping on now is a single bed, my other pillow cannot be put anywhere because it always turn out to be on the floor the next day. guess what? one night, i was feeling cold, so i used that pillow to cover my face:/ HAHAHA. and it protected me from music! HAHAHAHAH.

okay enough shit.

well, i really want to go on a holiday. like to be away. HAHAHAHAH. okay. bye!

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I NEED A JOB.

):

rotting away.

just a sorry for all those whom i've hurt. some pple that i wanna mention:
1) WIWIN- you've been a great WA. seriously. i dont know whats up with me but i still love you many many if you do see this (:
2) RACHEL- hello mellow bellow fellow!! hohohoho. rem-ember we had some conflicts(inner war) HAHAHA! in the beginning of the year? im glad we still played netball wonderfully tgr!! love yah lots too!
3) MARIAM- thanks for everything(: hahaha. yeah everything including ribnea. HAHAHAHHA
4) ESTHER,CANDACE,SALLY,SYLVINA,PENGLIN- hohohoho. thankyou very very very much.
5) KANGLI,VIVINA,LITING- really enjoyed camp with you all. seen you all grow. miss me hor! HAHAHHA.
6) POH CHENG LEE,YINLING- hohoho. i dont feel like typing much for both of you. AHHAHA
7) BOONKENG- hohoho. where all my study khakis are! thanks for all the encouragements.
8) ex-EC1- gees, thanks man.
9) current-EC1-gosh, its been a short yet long while we've been tgr. thanks for your presense in my life.
10) 4e3'06- hohohohoho. i still love minhua's singing, me,khai,minhua playing pictionary and sleeping during AMATHS class where everyone was struggling with amaths. standing in one whole row outside the staff room to bid our final goodbye to mrs shobana cheong, our last time to see the WHOLE class get punished tgr.
11) everybody who isnt mentioned- I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU(:

to stand up and be strongg.

brrrr. frrrrrr. mrrrrrrrr. yrrrrrrrr.


abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz. if i knew how to.

thankYOU and thankYOU.

thanks for the collection of cards and surprise celebration.

thanks for rushing down (:

thanks for being there.

i have finally understood what chenglee meant all the time by: people who are close to your heart can actually hurt you the most.

i've probably failed on my part. tears just welled up my eyes as i read the msg.
finally repercussion's happening to me yeah?

words can really kill.

woahh. the feeling i have now is as if i have major exams on sat and i haven finish study, HAHAHAHAH. i think im gg to have gift of craftmanship alr. HAHAHHA.

didnt know making my own christmas cards would be that tiring. HOHOHO. but its a joy to write them lehh. HAHHA.

walao. i think i suck. i've watched inotstupid2 for like what 5 times? and i just watched it again, but yeah ended up tearing again. HOHOHOHO.

really a good show. should watch it more often!

grah. my nose is leaking leaking leaking.

i need to sleep.

hoho. apparently sassy bit my cousin,kaysen, and he's bleeding now. hohoho.

anywayy, had a great day today!! bought papers and envelopes of cards. i guess i'll nv ever write finish them, but i try. hohoho. so if you dont get one, dont worry. its not that you're not impt, just that im lazy:/ and you all are still dearly loved by me okayy???

HAHAHAHA. bebyebyebyebyebeybeybeyeybeyebyebyebyebeybeybeye.


wait, did i say its been a happy sunny yellow banana day today? once in many many weeks kinda thing, sunny but yet got cold breeze. wow. the shiokness.

and yet another post......

hohoho. i went to run finally. but! its making me feel ever sickier(?). i kept on sneezing as i run. and now my nose is like dripping. HAHAHHHA.

its a sunny yellow banana day((:
hope it stays this way.


i woke up at 9am.



i miss ribena. HAHAHAHA. its beeen weeks since i last drank it. SOON! hohohohohohoho.













THERE YOU GO!

yoyoyo. yknow what? fried black dace fish is in production again!! hohohohohohoho.

its been raining and raining and raining and raining and raining and raining!!!! its so cold now i think singapore is starting to have winter!

have been dreaming about bad things recently.
1) i dreamt that i had this bad stomach flu. in my dream all i can remember is me keep finding toilet over and over and over again to shit. HAHAHAHA. really!!
2) i dreamt that singapore(?), i dont know what country it is man, was gg to have a war. and me, my sister and my mum kept running and finding holes( i dont know why, to hide probably) to avoid the war. den i kept saying, i dont want to be involved in a war. which eventually led me to be in the mrt covered in blanket with an angmoh sitting beside me looking very lustfully(?).

weird but i was really frightened max. heh.

went on a date with huijuan and it was awesomely gooooodddd. HEHEHEHEHE. can't wait to grow up and find my biblical man. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. huijuan, shhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!


yay! tmr's the 20th. cant wait. YINLING PLEASE DONT OVERSLEEP OR ANYTHING!

list of things that i've been doing.
1) packed my table.
2) packed my clothes cupboard.
3) threw away all the useless soft toys.
4) opened and closed an umbrella succesfully after 4-6 years of not touching them!
5) ate damn alot.
6) disturb sassy.
7) took 28 to and fro from my house to tamp and vice versa.
8) saw a madman on bus.
9) ATTEMPTED to exercise. hey, it was raining!
10) BLOG! (:


its been raining raining raining raining raining raining raining. i want to go on a holiday. maybe i shld go PLAY aeroplane. take budget airlines to some ulu place and come back! anywya quite cheap right?? so just take the plane and FLY.

PHOTO TIME!!




saw me with black hair.1st try: unsuccessful. colour wasnt obvious.
2nd try: the ahlian look:/quite nice lah hor. HAHHHAHA.


saw me at 4 nations league with mariam and jiahui!
team singapore!
huddle huddle.
center pass!
BIRTHDAY HAT!! I WANT ALSO!!




too lazy to cont. try again later. HAHAHAHAHA. more pictures coming!soon.

i ovened french fries. tastes goooodddd. 1 hour to ushering meeting time. im sitll here sitting. and unchanged! HAHAHAHAH.


pour okay? pour pour pour pour pour pour pour.


i want to see it happenning!!

my voice is coming back, but its starting to itch like siao :/


goodbye world.

my morning started with a WOW. god is really working thru the people. den followed by a slow, short and sweet jog.

came online and yeah, did something scary. GOD, YOU BETTER WORK!! ahahhahahahaha. putting all my trust in you!

fly me up to where you are
beyond the distant star
i wish upon tonight
to see you smile
if only for awhile to know you're there
a breath away's not far
to where you are


-

i think once i touch my bed, i wont be able to move until the next morning. this feels worse than running 5km. :/

i feel like b&j-ing right NOW. hehehehehehehe.

:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/:/

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz






there is no one like you, there has never ever been anyone like you.

curently im in love in taro pie from BK. influenced by my sheep. HAHAHA.


i dont know, but i have a bad feeling.
God, were you encouraging me or were you preparing me? HEH.
just unsure.

@#$_)(*&^%$#@@#&*

god in the center.

i feel emotionless:/ HAHAHA. dont know if its a good thing.

i need to sit down and start planning.


HAIYA. I WANNA GO OUT. like for some bbq or what. HAHAHA.

i want to be skinny healthy people!

im not feeling exactly well now. im having a headache. my nose blocked. my eyes are closing. my left ear is blocked as well. but yknow what? im gg to get refreshed and healed! HAHAHAHA.

BIG PAPERS ARE OVER. ONE LAST MCQ PAPER. WOOOOOOO. JIAYOU.

im tired:/ im craving for some home made juice now. like maybe watermelon smoothie, apple juice but definitely not banana juice:/ HAHAHA.

its gg to be a exciting week.

i need to grow.

nothing in this world, is gg to stop me now nor pull me down.....

HEH. jiayou tryphoza chan!

i will go! where you want me to go................



olevels been great! at least for some papers. HAHAHA.

lets go running/




now, i have to go remember and study for fnn and hist. 6 days. ahahaha. kwarshiorkor, marasmus......... shall be aliens no more!


one last lap man!!







GO RUNNING.

i seriously have to get my butt glued to the chair and start serious studying.

interestingly linked:/

RARRRRRRR. you all leave me alone!

WO JING TIAN FEI DU SHU BU KE. hahahahahahhaha.



screwed.

HELP! I NEED SOMEBODY
HELP! NOT JUST ANYBODY
HELP! YOU KNOW I NEED SOMEONE
HELP!

WHEN I WAS YOUNGER SO MUCH YOUNGER THAN TODAY
I NEVER NEEDED ANYBODY'S HELP IN ANY WAY
AND NOW THESE DAYS ARE GONE
I'M NOT SO SELF ASSURED
NOW I FIND I'VE CHANGED MY MIND
I'VE OPENED UP THE DOORS

HELP ME IF YOU CAN I'M FEELING DOWN
AND I DO APPRECIATE YOU BEING 'ROUND
HELP ME GET MY FEET BACK ON THE GROUND
WON'T YOU PLEASE, PLEASE HELP ME?

AND NOW MY LIFE HAS CHANGED IN OH SO MANY WAYS
MY INDEPENDENCE SEEMS TO VANISH IN THE HAZE
BUT EVERY NOW AND THEN I FEEL SO INSECURE
I KNOW THAT I JUST NEED YOU
LIKE I'VE NEVER DONE BEFORE

):

:/:/:/:/ i very tired lahh!! HAHAHA. why i cannot fall asleep even tho my eyelids are like almost closing?

as was sharing during cg, i cannot imagine how life would be without god. without god=without pple arnd me to love me and not let me die there lonely. HAHAHA. i mean!!
(a)look, when im feeling stressed, and when i say a chocolate sundae and can save me, of course it can, but not for long:/
(b)look again, when im feeling stressed, i get chocolate sundae and drink ribena and some more so many people love me and pull me back up. BETTER RIGHT?

see ah, (a) is just like gg for an operation and not stitching back the part where the doctor cut. HAHAHAHA. :/
im talking nonsense again:/

i feel like eating a zinger. dont ask why. HAHAHA. just feel like torturing myself okayy? HAHAHAHAHAHHA. like how i tortured myself in the past to drink coke and slowly grow to love it. HAHAHAHA.

ok. tmr will be studying at boonkeng! STUDY STUDY. unfruitful day today. :(

But out on the street it starts to pour
and before i get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Dont need to look at paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise


im next to many many many angels in disguise. HAHAHAHAHA. im back to corrinne may songs again!! HAHAHAA. her songs are great man! WOOOOOO.


[edit]
im trying hard to find an answer. when it used to seem that it was all okay, i just realised that it wasnt. im nt gg to shake it off this time. im nt gg to deceive myself that i've grown out of it. im nt gg to shove it aside and leave it there hidden again. im gg to walk towards it. im gg to poke it. im gg to be brave. im gg to be strong.
its time. to pick up the pieces left behind.

heh. just read someone's blog which i found really interesting because im somewhat like her. LOL. i dont know lah. HAHAHA. very bad to rip off from her blog. so im not gg to do it. HAHAHA. talking about being phlegmatic when it comes to working etc. hmm. yupp. learnt alot as well. HAHAH.

ANYWAY, wanna thank god for the Y-studyKhaki's!! HAHAHAHA. wow. new found grp heh. thx for the chocobaby. definitely felt loved. thank god for god, for bringing me to know this whole bunch of people from everywhere(eastD,eastB,eastE,(where's david from?)FNW,eastG,eastA(?counted??) )-where we study tgr, teach one another(even tho im always the one asking questions:/), pray for one another and also to hav fun with one another. thank god for every single one of you!! (:

next, wanna thank god for the FLYING XIAOQIANG on sat at the tauhuey store. definitely left a deep impact in me. fellowshipping with you guys just makes me feel so happy lahh!! love every single one of you!

thank god for yl for choc:)
thank god for that stupid shepherd. HAHAHA. always spying on me. thank god for you! found out another spy alr( a whole new person). you come ask me and i'll tell you who ok? HAHAHHA.

my sassy has a toothbrush. its so cute! she likes to eat the chicken-ny toothpaste thing. HAHAHAH.

god, i love you ok? you also must love me ok? when i study and i feel like killing myself, you must be my first aid kit hor! you cannot run away one. HAHAHAHA.

i feel like ribena-ing.

TV!!! BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE. O LEVELS IS COMING.

god really works in ways that people wont expect. whenever you say: god i want to grow, he'll SURELY make you grow. HAHAHAHA.

wanna thank god for these 2 important persons(?)HAHAHA. in my life: TAY YINLING and POH CHENGLEE.

thankyou yl for listening to me, for understanding me and for praying tgr with me! and also, for loving me like crap (:

thankyou chenglee for praying for me, giving me verses allowing me to eat chocolate sundae even tho i didnt at last. thankyou for always listening to me.

without you two, i think i would be a walking zombie, or maybe i would turn into a stone. HAHAHHAHA.

thankyou david+bryan for offering a prayer. HAHAHA. your names are finally here okay!
thankyou david for giving free tuition to 2 stupid people! HAHAHAHAHA. and thankyou bryan for getting the championship of the stupid person! AHAHAHHAHAHAHA. okok sorry sorry.
thankyou to the both of you ok!


thankyou thankyou thankyou to the most important one in my life, God.

best of luck to me. HAHAHAH/. science pract tmr. BYE!

was packing my room just now. and well, learned pretty much alot of things.

many times when people get into trouble, spiritually, emotionally, friendshippally(HAHA!) and everything lah, they tend to keep it to themself, push it aside, pack it up leave it there and just let it collect dust. i feel like using this word, and let it SNOWBALL. ahhahahahahaha. one fine example would be














like this! let me explain: when your teachers gives you ten worksheets per day and you cant really be bothered with them, you just chuck them aside or maybe pile them up. imagine with me this 1 day=10worksheets, 30 days/1 month= 300 worksheets. imagine how many piles would you've gotten after 1 month.

this is what i mean by, when you try to avoid certain things, situations, problems and just pretend that you dont have them, or try to bluff yourself that its something small and it'll vanish by itself, it'll snowball and it'll turn into a big problem, situation etc.

i dont know if you get it, but i do! HAHAHAH. just try to think like me. come on come on. think like me!!

ok, what if, you try to lets say. pack up all the worksheets(problems) given to you by your teachers after let's say 4 months? let me show you another example:















WOW. look, so neat right. looks like 4 months of worksheets are finally done. BUT, think about the process.

















when we are trying to pack up, naturally, we will feel pekchek and start thinkin: WHY DIDNT I PACK AND FILE IT NICELY IMMEDIATELY AFTER MY TEACHER GAVE ME THE NOTES. DEN I WOULDNT HAVE TO SUFFER NOW.
as we pack up, we tend to reflect, as we reflect we will think of ways to change, and we will be determined to change immediately for only for a short period of time, lets say 5 mins.

another example:

















WAHH so nice and neat right. in my mind: I WILL CHANGE. I WILL NOT BE LAZY AND DONT PACK MY THINGS ANYMORE.

after 5 mins,

waaa. sian ah, dont want pack alr. and you left:

















the rest unpacked! consoling yourself by saying: ITS OKAY. LOOK AT THESE RUBBISH. i've packed alot alr!














just leave those books there a few more days.. the DIT (do it tmr) syndrome starts.

get what i mean?? if you dont, please start using both your index finger and point it to the temple of your head(?) and start chanting: THINK LIKE TRYPHOZA! THINK LIKE TRYPHOZA!
go ahead, my post wont disappear!


so, moral of the story, pack up immediately after everything worksheet given. evaluate, and change!
what if you packed up half way? well, GO AND PACK FINISH NOW!! it will be tiring but, what beats having no problems at all? GO GO GO GO GO! stop giving yourself excuses and getting yourself into the DIT sickness!


GET MY MORAL OF THE STORY? you still have time to think like me. quick start chanting again. THINK LIKE TRYPHOZA! THINK LIKE TRYPHOZA! go ahead. go ahead.





okayy. enough of what i've learnt.

side track abit. I BAKED BROWNIES YOU KNOW!! although dont really taste fab, but!! HAHAHAHA. i baked it. all you people quick hail me the baking queen!! HAHAHAHHAA. i show you ok!



















HGAHAHAHHA. okay! BYEBYE!!!

start chanting ok! HAHAHAHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.


OH YAH! as i was packing right, i read thru alot of thoughts that i penned down when i was super stressed. well, just a note for you all. you see ah, at that time when i so stressed right, i managed to well overcome it i guess, otherwise i wont be here!

yupp! stress coming but god is coming even nearer!! be still and listen ok? or maybe try to pack up your room so that god will speak to you like how he did to me! HAHAHAHAH.

god still loves you! HAHAHAHAHA.

tiring tiring tiring. HAHAHAH. i hate chemistry lah!! ARGGGGG. ahahhaha. i will love it soon. HHHAHAH. im gg to touch on hist tmr. like FINALLY. im touching history yknow!!

OK. IM GG TO SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT. DECIDED! WOOOSHH. before i sleep. im gg to type some nonsense that you all wont understand.

C SPA
O SPC
S CLB
C LAG
H SPA CM


sassy smells nice today. HAHAHAH.



let your love surround me...

i wanna watch world trade center!!!! i want i want i want i want i want i want! YOU! HANDS UP! BRING ME THERE NOW! hahahahahahahhahahahahahhaa.

tmr's grad day. official day of me not being a bedokviewan anymore! HAIYA! the thought of me missing service tmr is kinda dampening my spirits now:/

but still, i wanna watch world trade center! then, buy me sweet popcorn and either a ribena or heaven and earths green tea! RARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. maybe some ocean creatures are fine.

i wanna go on a holiday. like now. go suntanning, buy shades, get a new bag, and some contact lenses! HAHAHAHAHAHA. maybe get some new jeans, clothes, and look hiphop^.^

actually what i wanna do now is like, yknow the movies den small little girls always their bed like fluffy fluffy one, i wanna jump onto all the fluffy fluffy den everything fly. HAHAHAHAHHAA. den my body will sink in that kind. HAHAHAHA. just for 10 secs! HAHAHAHAHA.

i want a cheeseburger and some ribena.

whats up with me and ribena? HAHAHAHA. like taking holy com:/
but i like!

im feeling scared:/ its just 3 weeks to olevels. its coming closer.

studied at boonkeng alone today. i seriously wanted to SCREAM, GIVE UP AND WALK AWAY. but daxiang was looking at me. so i cont on. there you go: my new found pet: daxiang.










i need to start to make my studying fruitful and like finish chapters.

i feel screwed:/ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. god!! bang wo!!!

i should make myself feel more stressed so i will study harder. HAIYA. i dont wanna go sch anymore. just let me rot at home with my books can? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I NEED TO SCREAM! maybe i should bring my guitar, go to some ulu part of the beach and scream my head off. den worship like siao. den smash my guitar on the floor if the scream is not enough. den blade 100km den run back to the smashded guitar and try to glue everything back. den go back to worship. into the holies of holies.


AHHHHHHHHH. im talking nonsense again. ok byebye. enough!

past few days have been..... hazy :/ and not so fruitful. havent been studying much.
parents gone on a holiday, we're left here on this lonely island with the sad little dog. HAHAHAHA.

just 4 more weeks to doomsday. im feeling very tired. yeah.. maybe its like my mind telling me im tired so that i can skip studying. HAHAHAHA. no!!!!!! no way!!

i want ribena and grapes NOW.

why do WE have to be the strong one when we're obviously not?
why do WE have to think of ways to settle it when we know nothings going to help.
i want out.
seriously.
when people are singing all for love, i feel like im singing all for nothing.


satans invading me right after i said john3:30.



lord, come quickly to save me.
i MUST get the negative-iwantout!
- - - - - - - NEGATIVE!!!

i should describe my state now using david hoe's compo: tears streaming endlessly.

picture of the year :

















its super nice lah! all of us so natural. ok! i give it picture of 2 years! (:





















john3:30 He must become greater; I must become less.

AMEN!

just 2 more weeks before we graduate from BEDOKVIEW SECONDARY SCHOOL ):
i dont wanna leave!!!! not because of anything else other than my beloved netball team lahh!! HAIYA..!!!!

a tribute to the lovely seniors!















lovely seniors/team mates for 4 years! (: WHERES SUHARA!

















after EZONES MATCH. i like this picture :0 HAHAHA. because we all look fat and retarded and dirty and smelly. gungho netballers. AND PLUS MY BANDAGED HAND AT THE SIDE. CAN SEE CAN SEE? will nv forget rachel go and tell the tkss: please be careful with her hand. she sprain/broked(??) her hand :/
















the day we attempted to take emo pictures and when mariam REFUSED to go to the beach with us to play water :(
















when mariam was still fat! HAHAHAHA. we sat in one big circle playing say macoroni!





























HAHAHAHA! standard photo (:














fake balls flying!


LAST BUT NOT LEAST :















the day that we thrashed marsilling. and the place where all our hard work, joy, fun, boding sessions, stupid jokes, snatching court with NPCC, NCC, all our matches played here, 4 years of teamworkship(?), love, toils, tears, blood, falling down, spraining ankle, sissors paper stone game, throwing balls up to 2nd floor because we're lazy to walk up, training with medicine ball, skipping, bluffing our way throught the 2 rounds warm up, ballworks, pissed-ness, dancing, indian dance, tying the shorty(amanda) shoes onto the pole; hanging her socks on trees. love love love love love love love. the place where most memories were made(?). AHHHAHA. LOVE YOU GIRLS! wait i forgot something, most importantly the place where we have morning assembly every single morning! <3

let's play one last match before we all graduate!

many things have been happening. kinda affected by the things that are happening one after another. probably not affected. just burdened. VERY burdened in fact. just feel that, i cant do anything much other than to pray and fast to help you guys. rarrr.

when i'm trying hard to understand your point of view, i hope you're trying your best as well. we're all very VERY worried for you.

its like gg back to square 10000009???

this dry and weary land.


ate super alot today. probably because i just wanted to enjoy before i start feeling burdened all over again in the night. SEE I TOLD YOU IT WILL BE DIFFERENT IN THE NIGHT.

my neck still pain and there's stupid lessons tmr.

i need to pray. :/

im having this neck-ache(?) thats killing me. argg. thank god it only pain-ded(?) after all my studying have been done for prelims.

i feel whiny again! HAHAHAHA.

I TELL YOU, the service at jack's place is :/ i have no vocab to actually describe them. HAIYA. probably age-ist(?) like a racist lah! like the table beside us was treated TOTALLY DIFFERENT which made me feel quite- off. RARRRR. i was that close to complaining lah!! LUCKY FOR THEM, the women beside us decided to be nice. HAIYA.

SEE WHAT I MEAN? ahahahhahaa. whiny and comprainy. HAHAHAHA.

i feel like im on a holiday too MARIAM! haiya. i need to start studying again!

i want sugarcane juice with lemon, ribena and maybe some churrios!

who wanna study with me? AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 3! father son and holy spirit! HAHAHAHAHA.

rain downnnnnnnnnnnnnn........................................................

wow. there's just so much for me to say and to thank and i dont know where to start. maybe i should like cut short.

past few weeks has indeed been one of my best weeks ever despite all the stress, all my kangchiongness, all my irritatedness and all the headaches.

dearest 1st generation of stupid sheep,
i have finally understood the feeling of being "accountable" to someone. i've never felt this way before. have finally seen the importance because i feel more relaxed and i know that its not just me, because you'll double confirm. through the many things that i've been through and thought through this week, im glad you've been here sharing my life because i hate the feeling of you poking me and poking me and poking me and i just cannot get an answer out everytime after something happens. HAHAHAHAHA. anyway, sorry for the many times that i made you feel like giving up and puking blood. much appreciated. im glad that i can now look back and laugh when i think of payalebar mrt station and comfort delgro bus stop. i should feel honoured because im the first sheep that would do that to you and the worst sheep that you ever had(to this point, maybe; you'll get worser ones.! HAHAHAH.). HAHAHAHHA. im glad i've grown (you double confirm ok) and the best thing of all, you seeing me grow. AHAHAHHAHA. ok too mushy alr. stop here. HAHAHHAHA. anyway, its all your fault that now i also got problems! HAHAHAH. stupid lion!

tay backside!
know things havent been well. HAHAHAHA. let jiayou tgr and bring our group to grow and shine from glory to glory. i believe we can make a difference!

also,

wanna thank god for blessing me through my parents. have really seen so much love overflowing from there to me. it feels very very nice to be loved by both my parents at the same time esp when my parents arent the kind who will go the extra mile for someone. definitely felt really loved.

thank god for god for making me think through many things and for speaking to me through people, through teachings, through many things.
maybe i have the gift of prophesizing. HAHAH. have been seeing alot of images and verses and everything recently.

thank god for giving me manageable papers. i should be keeping my fingers crossed. because things will turn out unexpectedly still. AHHAHA. but still thank god in advance.


anyway, played bball today. am very glad i played at last becuase its been years since i last played an thankfully there wasnt any sun! HAHAHAHAHa. otherwise i would have think twice before playing. i shuold play bball more often! very fun!! HAHAHAH. but i feel like im dancing. HAHAH. like twist here and there. I WAS TRYING OK YINLING! hahahahahaha.

theres so much to thank god for.
I WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE. no, WE will make a difference. to hold on in our beliefs! we can make it!

ECCLESIASTES 4:9-12

the previous post was saved as a draft the other day. i dont know why. LOL. ahhahaa.

was looking through all my answer-less teachings when i found Living the Passion Series- The Meaning Of Love. didnt expect to have such a teaching about it. HAHAHAH. glad i decided to come online to check out the physics prelim papers and just now, it was in my folder, so i opened and saw: passion series and a whole load of teachings there. HAHAHAHA. cool.

found the conclusion of the teachings rather, .. i dont know. HAHAH

Love with His definition and not ours. Only through God can we love supernaturally. When we are a changed person, love flows out naturally. In everyday life, we can be God honoring.

is your love flowing out naturally? HAHHA. if it isnt, maybe you're not a changed person as yet.! HAHAHAHA.

What Is Love?


"When you look at love, you're looking into the face of appreciation."

Throughout the history of mankind, we as a world culture have made love out to be mysterious, complex, difficult, and undefinable. It's the subject of endless poems and literary works. There is an enormous amount of material available out there about love, a lot of it contradictory.

We've been given the impression that to define love is near to impossible. Maybe there's a fear that if we define it, it would somehow be less powerful...less impactful...less exhilarating. Maybe we like the mystery of it. But is it really that complicated? Perhaps the complications surrounding love come from all "stuff" we add on to this powerful emotion. Lets drop all the baggage surrounding relationships and define what it is we are experiencing in the moment of love.

Basic Components of Love
What do you feel when you love someone? If distilled down to it’s core components, what would those be? Yes, love is an emotion, a feeling, a wanting, and a ''being''. We know it feels good, but what specific feelings, wantings, and beings are present when we feel love? Here are the common denominators of love...

Love is Accepting.
Acceptance is labeling someone as "okay" and having no particular desire to change them. Who they are is perfectly fine with you. You pose no condition on whether you will love them or not. This is call unconditional love. When your love IS conditional, the moment they step outside your set of conditions, love evaporates.

Love is Appreciating.
Appreciation is one step beyond acceptance. Its when your focus is on what you like about another. We look at them and feel this sweeping appreciation for who they are, their joy, their insights, their humor, their companionship, etc. When someone says they are "in love" with another, they mean their appreciation is so enormous for this person that it consumes their every thought.

Love is Wanting Another to Feel Good.
We want those we love to be happy, safe, healthy, and fulfilled. We want them to feel good in all ways, physically, mentally and emotionally.

How Do We Express Love?
We don't always express our love. Love is a feeling and the expression of that feeling is separate. It’s an action. There's a practical reason we don't always express our love for another. It's an issue of TIME. We only have 24 hours in a day (if you make it up that way). If the expression of love was a core ingredient to love, we would have to be stingy with who we loved, because there simply wouldn't be enough time to demonstrate our love for everyone! If you see the distinction between the feeling and the expression, you can then love endless numbers of people.

Attention
Love expressed is when you give your attention, your time, your focus to someone. Webster defines attention as ''the giving of one’s mind to something."
There are many ways in which we give our attention to another. We use our five senses. Our ears to listen. Being completely present with the one who is speaking. Our eyes, watching another, undivided attention. Tasting/smelling? (I’ll let you figure that one out). Touching, giving a hug, holding a hand, a caress, or sexual expression. How you express your love depends on the type of relationship.

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deprived of computer. im sick of history! what i foresee happening to me the other time didnt happen. that i was gg to cry sutyding for history. guess what, im simply gg to give it up. HAHAHAHA. maybe not. maybe i shld like take a 2nd try.

i need sleep. desperately.

what does it really mean to love?

"to love is to give someone the ability t break you down. but trusting that they wont. love in itself is a selfless act. " Mariam.

so, how do you know if you're giving enough love? and, how do you know that the person knows that you are loving that person by the certain things that you do.

if the person don't know that you are loving them, showing love would be pointless. ?? im making myself confused now.

how do you know that by doing some things you are actually loving the person? sometimes, some things you do, accidentally LOVED the person in some way, but you dont know. yet sometimes, some things you do, PURPOSELY want to love the person but the person dont realise it?

love is something very simple yet complicated.
have you ever loved someone until you think that you're not loving enough? if love is a routine, i rather not love.

to love god, is to love his people. to love his people, is to love god. how much will you love?

just realised my previous post was stupid:

'to fight monsters thoughts and dinosaur brains.
to kill cockroaches and to clear the mess.'

it didnt really make sense there. HAHAHAHHA.

so, sat was spent ushering for anniversary at expo. so had little pictures with my caregroup, actually not. HAHAHA. just some sensored pictures! :/ HAHAHAHA.








the heavily make-up-ded kid. HAHAHAHA.









heh! bryan's in the picture too! my photography skills ahh. HAHAHA.











AND FINALLY, my lovely gummy bear team :) of course without qiqi+tino.


















more pictures next time :/ lazy liaoz. HAHAHAHA.

This is a song for anyone whose ever been
Knocked down and can't get back again
Stuck in the corner, can't move forward
All alone and you think you're going nowhere
This is a song for anyone whose ever stood underneath the sun

And felt so small, two feet tall and so out of place
He sees you - He knows you - He loves you

And He wants you to know that
The life that you've been living, the days that you've been given
Were made for something beautiful
Life - don't let it pass you by
Because you were created for something beautiful

Heaven holds a dream that's just for you
And there are things only you can do
So step by faith, put the past away so step by faith, don't be afraid
It'll take you to a better day put the past and your fears away
Second to minute to hour to life
Time always seems to fly
It's on the go and before you know
Your days are through

But he sees you - He knows you - He loves you
And he wants you to know that

The life that you've been living, the days that you've been given
Were made for something beautiful
Life - don't let it pass you by
Because you were created for something beautiful

What are - you waiting for
What are you - waiting for
What - are you waiting for
There's something beautiful

-Natalie Grant- Something beautiful

heh. timely song. putting me down, yet carrying me up again. phil 3:12-21. thankyou. i will be still.

so what about the headaches?

i feel loser-ish. :/

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i feel like im gg nowhere again!!


mummy has been very nice to me recently. she just gave me a massage. i should bug either mummy and sister to bring me go to some massage parlour again. chong chong myself. HAHAHAHA. i should go there and relax before OLEVELS come. which is really soon :/ i can see myself walking towards death. HEH.


i foresee myself crying while studying for history. i dont know how to start. RARRRRRR.
heh.
AND! i have a bad feeling about science practical tmr. like i probably add the wrong things to the wrong things again and end up having to do everything all over since ngiam's not gg to be beside me, AND im supposed to do it alone :/

I NEED A STUDY BUDDY. and maybe some apple juice or ribena.
MAYBE I SHOULD GO AND EAT SOME PILLS FOR LIKE MEMORY BOOSTER.

anyway, thankyou JIAHUI for the bird nest in the morning to start off my prelims. i dont know if i can kickass the prelims, but i'll try to show you that NA can do it! HAHHAHAHAHA//


i think everyone's like stressed? HAHAHA. if you think i will make sense, read on:
1) most of us are having headaches, bad headaches.
2) almost all my girlfriends are having their period.
3) i see less people online. HAHAH. maybe its because its still school time.
4) no body playing with me anymore ):
5) feel tired just looking at books.
6) cry ):


i should go back to my 10 essential amino acids and 12 non-essential amino acids. my dietary fibres. my vitamins. my minerals. and the whole ugly thick red book. somehow, i feel accomplished looking at my past notes. i wonder why i didnt do well. probably plain stupid needs +100000000000000000000000000000 hardworkingness to succeed.

i just realised how much i miss playing netball with the team again.

): my back hurts again.

tryphoza will be fasting from comp. 1week only 1.5hours. orders by cheng. HAHAHAHA.

so, after being sick for so many days. im finally well. after not running for 3 weeks, im definately not well. i tired again today, i was DYING lah. couldnt even finish the usual path i run. BAD.


RARRR.

I WANT A STUDY BIBLE. ):

PLEASE LET $79 DROP FORM THE SKY NOW! (:

to all of you baskets who thinks that chan shushan tryphoza cannot speak or do well for chinese, LOOK AT THIS!

B3 for chinese.
Distinction for oral.


hah! lalallalalalaallalalalalalalalaalallalalalalaa. this feels better than eating ben and jerrys and drinking ribena!

to all who still thinks that chan shushan tryphoza is still jiak-ing kantang, YOU ARE WRONG.

wo de hua yu hen hao. ni men chi da bian!! HAHAHAHAH. wo zai ye bu shi jiak kantan le!

i have many many post. but im not gg to post it! HAHAHAHA.

been to the doctor's again. because of the stupid headaches.

i feel like eating b&j's again ):

new, new, new, new, new, new, new, new, new, new, old.
RARRRRRR.

new, new, new, new, new, new, new, new, new, new, new!
YEAHHH.

temptations no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
resist yes, yes, yes. yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes!

i love my jiejie! (:

last week: was sick, went to the doctors. 1day mc from school and 3 days antibiotics course.
apparently, it did not help me in any way.

so went to the doctor's again today.

5 day antibiotics course and tmr mc! HAHA!

i tell you, im very sleepy. and i gg back to bed.

i feel so sick. like im drowning in my own mucus :(

sneezing since morning. TERRIBLE LAH. i hate it.

the following contents may be too violent for some of you. please DO NOT carry on reading if you have a weak heart.

LOL! HAHAHAHA




never knew girls were violent until this happened to me:


fat arms ):

and this!


and this!~


the next picture was done by SHIREEN while playing helly gelly(?)


SCARY HUH. ITS ALL ON THE SAME HAND!

today!!

its the first time im running road run and i got medal!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. but i tripped over some stones while running and now my toe has a wanna burst blister.
this!


HAHAH. my stinky feet at jiahui's house. havent even washed it when i took the picture.

HEHEHEHE.

4.3km lehhhh.. proud of myself
AHAHAHA. GO FATS GO!

FROM A FAT LOSING RUNNING TIME TO A MEDAL WINNING TIME. hahaha. wasnt expecting to win anything but i won!

i really miss netball and the girls ):
miss me playing Center ):
miss going to jeremy's to pig out with the netballers ):
miss rachel and mariam for their constant ROLLING ON THE FLOOR motion ):
miss eileen's grandmother stories ):
miss ice kacang without kacang ):
miss playing in sea water knowing that everyone doesnt have extra clothes ):
miss laughing at each and everyone's silliness ):
miss the excitement and nervousness during the start of every match ):

everytime i see juniors train, really want to join them, but, have to get my piorities right.

i really miss sprinting and doing 4x100m with the team ):
love the baton passing from me to serena. always so nice and smooth. took us so long to train and get used to one another.miss me running 3rd runner ):
miss applying the smelly duno what it is called heat rub thing, miss the smell, miss the feeling of competition and always feeling scared ):
miss eating CHOCOLATE bread sponsered by don't know who whenever there's competition ):
altho at the point when i was gg to quit, i felt that i wasnt part of the team, i still miss the team ):


when will OLEVELS end? i dont want it to start, but i want it to end NOW! i haven't played enough!

NETBALLERS, CAN WE GO OUT ONE DAY?

i think i sprained my back.

this was what happened.

i was walking towards my class as usual in the morning, and while walking, i had the urgent need to, SNEEZE. so when i sneezed, i felt a sudden pain on my back.

my legs turned soft, and i fell to the floor. i tried to stand up but i couldnt move my legs. it felt so heavy, like tonnes of pure gold. my arms gave way, and i fell flat on my back. i struggled to get up, but i couldnt. i felt like i was sinking into quicksand. at that moment, i thought that that living creature was going to suck me down into its bottomless pit, and im never going to be heard from again. i saw thousands, no millions of stars and, and i blacked out.

































HAHHAHAHAHA! ALL YOU GULLIBLE PEOPLE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA.


no lahh. what happened was, i was walking to school when i had a sudden urge to sneeze, so i snazed(?) HAHAHAH// and i somehow twisted my back. and until now its still painful. HAHAHAHHA. so stupid right, sneeze and twist my back. HAHHAHAHA.

LOOK MY EYELIDS BACK TO NORMAL!

everytime when i hear or see the word bubble, in my mind these will keep replaying/repeating:
bubble bubble bubble.
bubble bubble bubble.
bubble bubble bubble.

SUNDS FAMILIAR RIGHT??!?? its mdm ho! that chemistry teacher. HAHAHAHA. i think its so funny lah. like she always go den the reaction will be bubble bubble bubble. LOL. ahahhahahahahahhaahhahahahahaha.

i feel like eating another peanut butter bread.

went to LJS with the guys and cleo.

so we went to the popular. was walking around when i saw this bookmark which i felt that was kind of useless and crappy.it said something like,
'its ok to fail, because you have done your best!'

i mean! NONSENSE CAN!! most singaporeans dont do their best thats why they fail! i mean, how many of you out there DARE to say that you have done your best?

so, in conclusion, that bookmark is pretty useless. pretty but useless. so people, PLEASE dont give someone an encouragement that goes: ohh, its okayy. you've done your best.

ACTUALLY, its somewhat insulting right? like, ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY THAT, I HAVE DONE MY BEST, SO THIS IS THE RESULTS I GET, AND THAT MEANS IM STUPID?

i seriously think that i make absolute sense!

HAHAHAHAHAHAA. but it does makes me feel good if you drop me an encouragement card anytime :)
maybe you can add a NOT in the you've done your best.

swensens and mariam makes me fat!

AIYA! WHY THAT POST LIKE THAT. I CANNOT BE BOTHERED TO MAKE IT NICE NICE LIAOZ. AHHHHH. TEEVEEEE!!!!

BLISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

LOOK AT THIS EYE LID. ITS DAMN UNCOMFORTABLE CAN!! ITS LIKE TRIPLE FOLDED. MAKES MY EYE CANNOT OPEN FULLY. MAKES ME LOOK TIRED AND RETARDED.

NOW YOU SEE THIS EYE LID! ITS SUPPOSED TO BE THIS WAY!! THIS IS THE WAY, THEN MY EYE WILL FEEL COMFORTABLE.!! NOW WITH ONE EYE LID LIKE THE FIRST PICTURE AND ONE EYE LID LIKE THE SECOND PICTURE, I LOOK SO RETARDED!!! AHHHHHH! STUPID EYELIDS, YOU ARE GETTING ON MY NERVES!!

my throat is itching. thats bad news. what if i enter the examination hall at 2pm and and i try to talk, but no sound come out!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. THIS ORAL IS ONLY ONCE! NO RETAKE!! HOW AH?

school starts at 10.30 for me! just go there and take a 2 hour fnn paper which i cannot remember anything at all for.
): my only paper which i can pass, all gone like that. ):


itchy itchy miaoy miaoy? HAHAHAHAHHAHA.

shall get some soyabean to drink tmr when i stop at kembagan to take mrt on my way to sch.! YAY!

im tired, but i cannot sleep. because i feel guilty. because i haven memorise anything about fnn.! hey i tried ok??!! but, haiya. retribution. HAHAHAHAHA.

didnt get my B&J today. sad): too lazy to walk the overhead bridge. anyway, good thing also lah, den will have lesser clumps of fats! HAHAHAHAHAHHAA.

anyway, sassy so clever can! she's FINALLY learning how to walk beside her master with the lease. HAHAHAHA.

TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!
TRY, PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR SCHOOL TIE!



i like long posts. makes me feel accomplished. HAHAHAHAHAHA//

goodnight. while you all are sleeping your pi gu off, i shall START forcing myself to remember the idiotic FNN.

had a dream last night:

i re-joined track and field. so, we went for a run at some hill, but not bukit timah hill. dunno what ulu hill lahh. and because of my long long time injury, MY SPOILT KNEE, i couldnt run properly. i wasnt tired but i was limping. limping as i run. i felt terrible. and because before that it was raining, the floor was slippery. so we had to run up this slope(please be reminded, wet floor), and because of netball, my shoe's friction was almost gone. and because of that as everyone was running up the slope, i ran up as well BUT i kept falling down. and at that point, i wanted someone to come and help me but no one did. NOT EVEN the ex-teacher in charge whom i have so much respect and love for, for his caring-ness etc who i can call father as in daddy(LOL), came to help me. until this 'father' brought me to a lousy shoe shop which only sell 1 shoe for running. my 'father'took that one and only shoe which cost $219 bucks, and told me to get it. that was the only shoe and it was the hot favourite shoe that everyone would want to buy. however, i was not willing to spend this money because my previous pair was only $79. after a long consideration, this 'father' took a pair of sandals for me which cost only $11 and went to the counter to pay.

so anyone wanna solve this mystery? HAHAHAHA// of why i dreamt of this dream.

my guitar's finally fixed. ahhhh. nice and easy to press compared to my bro's acuostic(?) guitar. i thought i just heard some "toot toot toot, toot toot" you know the sound coming from the computer or radio whenever you've a call or a msg when your phone's nearby? but no msg lehh. weird.

i feel like gg for a run, but HAHAHAHAHA, later run halfway my knee spoil, nobody save me, since i always run in some ulu place.

netballers!! shall we go to JEREMY'S to have lunch someday. we'll play say marcoroni and oyster forfeit again!!

i feel like eating B&J!! maybe shall walk across to shell to get some.
i realised when mummy wanna use the comp she'll first make up some excuse like: OLEVEL coming still play play play ah.
den she'll walk into the comp room and say: my turn!

HAHAHAHAHAHA. so funny lah!

B&J should i??

chihuahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahua!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

if you're feeling bored, please come and volunteer and bathe SASSY the SMELLY DOG!! i'll give you my B&J leftovers! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i decided that i shld move to somewhere private. no worries, i'll still be blogging here. afterall, this is where all my happy moments are :)

http://www.InspiringThots.net/movie/dawn.php
with each gooodbyes i learn.

pretty interesting that it describes pretty well what i really learnt at that time. was blog-hopping and went to yingjie's. she had the link for inspiring thoughts. so i went to see ALOT of it. kind of amazed when i saw this.

mariam once told me that we should say goodbye to every one that we've hurt or had grudges between each other before, so that when we leave school we can leave without any hatred or anything that we regretted doing or not doing.
1 example: CASSANDRA NG// kind of sad that we not how close we are as from primary school to secondary1. the reason that actually made us drift apart is still unknown, at least to me. i can give myself 1001 reasons why, but i'll just be deceiving myself. i didnt get to say bye when she left school, but im glad, i still see her online and occasionally can read her blog to see whats up with her life. at least we still chat online and hi say when we bump into one another outside.


aye this is so random!! HAHAHAHHAA.

on a lighter note,

i am like having the 2nd run of JUNE holidays.
i've no sch today. + sat and sun. monday which is youth day. tues, 1 FNN paper and probably oral as well. wed, NO SCHOOL. thurs-exursion: maths trail. friday- i heard theres no school because of the parents excel thingyy. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
cool man.

stupid sassy jumped onto my bed whil i was sleeping, stepped on my phone and ran out. IRRITATING AND SMELLY DOG. YOU DOG!!!

i wanna go mariam house and play the big gym ball and eat food and drink yakult and ribena and shake hands with her CATS):

this hurts, because i feel that i dont understand myself.

wasted one studying day today. RARR. i should study abit first before sleeping.

PLEASE SAVE MY MARIAM! lol. to donate any funds please go to
www.xstrandedx.blogspot.com



things i wanna do now:
1) play netball
2)after netball go makan and play with them

netball and netballers i miss you all. wanna talk to you all again like how we used to. go mariam house bbq and i sit there and eat chicken and ignore you all because you all say i cannot start fire. BUT WHEN IM THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN START THE FIRE!! followed by the long walk from mariam's house to the playgrnd at telok kurau. sitting there, talking cock and sharing life. ): I MISS YOU ALL. CAN WE HAVE THE NEXT BBQ SOON?? PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

i just wanna run away and hide. from everything, everybody.

RARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.





pretence

ahhh!!! very angry with myself lah!!

firstly, i couldnt do the whole of question5 because i do not what a hemisphere is!! STUPID CANNN!!!!!!!! argggggg. the question so easy lahh!!!! haiya...

2ndly, ARGGG. i dont feel like talking about it anymore. its so stupid i feel like killing myself when i knew that i was right.

wa. cant stand myself. im so pretty can!! HAHAHAHA. look at my picture below!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAA. pretty siah!
if only i had nice flawless skin):

I'LL BE PRETTIER MANN!

just came back from running. i ran the usual route+one extra new never run before road, but i came back earlier.

sian from the studying. very distracting with mummy and daddy and uncles and aunties playing mahjong. with kids running around disturbing my sassy):

and THEREFORE:





TADAHHHH.

and the final product:


SEE MY SCAR-DED HEAL-DED PIMPLE ON MY CHIN. SAD HUH.

envious of my new handphone pictures?? HAHAHAHA. all you lousy handphones that cannot take clear pictures, don't you all dare disturb me anymore(but you all nv did before)! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA. DONT CARE!

AND MY HANDPHONE IS PRETTY!! IT DOES NOT LOOK LIKE A TOY PHONE! ARGGGGGG.

didnt have a good sleep.

feel my lungs like wanna burst. have lots of phlem. RARRRRRR.

all of you sick people STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!!

yesterday's cip was TERRIBLE. all of us felt like construction workers! its really hard labour man!

picture this:

4 girls, 3 ladders. 3 climbing up to the highest level of the ladder to wash, dry, clean, polish the suport windows with SO MANY panels and SO MUCH dust. even standing on the highest level with no support, it was difficult to reach the highest level of the glass panel, tiptoed.
risk factor: 10 stars. ( for non-experienced construction workers)
tired factor: 6 stars.

6 guys, 1 big trolley? barrel? i dunno whats that called man. trying to feel the big hole with tiles and later to fill it with sand. before that it was raining, so the sand is x10 much heavier. the place where all the sand were is about 50-100m, probably more than that, far away, with steepy slopes up and down. imagine carrying about 70kg(?) of heavy sand. 6 guys to one big trolley(?) and they cannot even control it.
risk factor: 3 stars.
tired factor: 10 stars.

argg. so tiring can. i was even dreaming about cleaning windows, i got so afraid, i couldnt sleep properly. so im super tired now. my dream was about me cleaning some windows, and i saw that the windows were never ending. dream until i stomachache. damn sad lah!

god, pull me through this LONG LONG DAY!

i have not started studying. die.

2 hrs40mins to my day!

not gg to be a happy one as well. 2 years consecutive. rarrr.

jiejie, i dont want beebee!!

sassy, come and kiss me):